Five vs. Eleven

[queueball]

The Lovemaps model of a split between saintly love and sinful lust is meant to explain the association of a behavior, interest, or identity with sex that is not associated with sex for most people. But it also beautifully models the contradictory and extreme ways I think and feel about selflessness and innocence, obligation and privilege

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[queueball]

Thanks, that's probably a better model for it, and goddess knows the unconscious is able to be that far ahead of the conscious game. This makes me think: what are the implications for other paraphilias? The fact that mine, as it developed in me, lacks the expiatory or predatory components that are commonly coexistent with the talismanic has made me wonder if the genesis of mine has an uncommon explanation. On the other hand, I'd love to see, e.g., sadism and masochism (individually and together) modeled not as a Money-style split or other simple reaction to early stimulus, but the kind of "stepping stone" you describe: "I want this thing so badly to be a universally accessible part of the human experience that I've gone really hardcore on this other thing as my id's best guess at how to get there ASAP."

[anarchomo]

Every single person is vulnerable to unexpected defeat in this inmost emotional self. At every moment, behind the most efficient seeming adult exterior, the whole world of the person's childhood is being carefully held like a glass of water bulging above the brim. And in fact, that child is the only real thing in them. It's their humanity, their real individuality, the one that can't understand why it was born and that knows it will have to die, in no matter how crowded a place, quite on its own. That's the carrier of all the living qualities. It's the centre of all the possible magic and revelation.

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