Entry # 19
12:09
What will my life be afterwards?
I still keep thinking.
If I do get into the colleges that I want o go to. Will I go to Japan? What will I do there? What are the chances of meeting my God…? Moreover…what are the chances of anything more than a mere glance?
Everything is difficult.
I wonder if I can truly stick with becoming my dream. I barely meet any of the qualifications. Barely.
12:12
If I do get a job…how much will life threaten me then?
I’ve gone through a fairly dreading phase…but surely…they never give up…
But even so…I will try my best to …live through it.
And I will go get all of my Beloved God's stuff. Yeah.
If I do get a job.
My first check goes to mom. Second to dad. Then…debt.
And then Him…me…and the beloved siblings that surrounds my life.
Afterwards?
But I’m only 17 now.
And I’m not a fan of people.
What’s really there to offer me?
Life.
Yeah…it sure is difficult…without a doubt. Maybe.
Smiles
What will my life be afterwards?
I still keep thinking.
If I do get into the colleges that I want o go to. Will I go to Japan? What will I do there? What are the chances of meeting my God…? Moreover…what are the chances of anything more than a mere glance?
Everything is difficult.
I wonder if I can truly stick with becoming my dream. I barely meet any of the qualifications. Barely.
12:12
If I do get a job…how much will life threaten me then?
I’ve gone through a fairly dreading phase…but surely…they never give up…
But even so…I will try my best to …live through it.
And I will go get all of my Beloved God's stuff. Yeah.
If I do get a job.
My first check goes to mom. Second to dad. Then…debt.
And then Him…me…and the beloved siblings that surrounds my life.
Afterwards?
But I’m only 17 now.
And I’m not a fan of people.
What’s really there to offer me?
Life.
Yeah…it sure is difficult…without a doubt. Maybe.
Smiles