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What a weird day. I had crew, great 2k. Ate breakfast. Talked to my adviser and felt much better about my thesis work, or lack there of.
Then I promptly slept from 10:45am to 4:30pm. I can't seem to shake this sleeping crap.
I talked to Christina on Facebook. We got a lot of things out. It was nice, and painful at the same time. We both were crying. That was comforting that we both a still healing. I hurt her feelings by telling her that I'm starting to date, but she appreciated the honesty. I wish I could have been so honest in our relationship. I really wish that we had wanted to same things. It seems like such a waste to love each other, but not be able to stay together.
It's still very painful to realize that we will never be together like that again. I'm just hoping we are going to be friends soon. Maybe a few more Facebook chats and in a few weeks or months we can actually hangout. This is speculative since she is studying for her MCAT's and applying to med school.
It was incredibly odd talking to Christine during parts of my conversation with Christina. The closeness of their names has to be of some significance. I don't know. I'm just trying to be happy and going out with people appears to be helping a bit. So this is what I'll continue to do.
Tomorrow is water practice for crew. I'm honestly not feeling it. Its 11:26pm and I have to get up at 4:30am. I feel very disconnected this semester from crew. I'm pulling great numbers, but I'm not sure if I should be here. Everything is so not clear.
Then I promptly slept from 10:45am to 4:30pm. I can't seem to shake this sleeping crap.
I talked to Christina on Facebook. We got a lot of things out. It was nice, and painful at the same time. We both were crying. That was comforting that we both a still healing. I hurt her feelings by telling her that I'm starting to date, but she appreciated the honesty. I wish I could have been so honest in our relationship. I really wish that we had wanted to same things. It seems like such a waste to love each other, but not be able to stay together.
It's still very painful to realize that we will never be together like that again. I'm just hoping we are going to be friends soon. Maybe a few more Facebook chats and in a few weeks or months we can actually hangout. This is speculative since she is studying for her MCAT's and applying to med school.
It was incredibly odd talking to Christine during parts of my conversation with Christina. The closeness of their names has to be of some significance. I don't know. I'm just trying to be happy and going out with people appears to be helping a bit. So this is what I'll continue to do.
Tomorrow is water practice for crew. I'm honestly not feeling it. Its 11:26pm and I have to get up at 4:30am. I feel very disconnected this semester from crew. I'm pulling great numbers, but I'm not sure if I should be here. Everything is so not clear.