Old feelings and new experiences
Today the chick that Christina is talking to came up to spend the next several days with her. At first I was really excited because I want her to move on and I felt like once she does, it will help me really move on as well. But now with the reality of this person's arrival I've become quite jealous. Although I know this is normal, I'm not ok with it. I was happy to be able to vent to Lillian and she happily listened to me and validated my feelings. I had to ask E to not tell me anything else about them. I need to not be involved. I want Christina to be happy, but it still hurts.
Lately, been feeling down. Super lonely I guess. Unfortunately, my one and only school crush that I was trying to ignore really got my attention today in class. I went and found her on Facebook and luckily she is into women, unfortunately she has a child. I'm not really for people with kids, it makes things complicated. Not that she would be interested in me, I really have no idea. But it made me feel sad.
Anyway enough with the whine. Went to Harvey's and met up with Erin, a friend of Sam's. She was super cool and we had good conversation. We went to The Lookout and met up with her friend and checked out women. It was chill and enjoyable. Although I barely caught the MUNI, but was assisted by a nice gay couple who gave me change because the change machine wasn't working. Then ran and just made the NL, I would have had to wait for 30 minutes if I hadn't ran.
Now I'm home reflecting on my day. It was a good day. I tend to have a good night/bad day or good day/bad night. Trying to figure out how to have a an entire day of good. Working on it.
Lately, been feeling down. Super lonely I guess. Unfortunately, my one and only school crush that I was trying to ignore really got my attention today in class. I went and found her on Facebook and luckily she is into women, unfortunately she has a child. I'm not really for people with kids, it makes things complicated. Not that she would be interested in me, I really have no idea. But it made me feel sad.
Anyway enough with the whine. Went to Harvey's and met up with Erin, a friend of Sam's. She was super cool and we had good conversation. We went to The Lookout and met up with her friend and checked out women. It was chill and enjoyable. Although I barely caught the MUNI, but was assisted by a nice gay couple who gave me change because the change machine wasn't working. Then ran and just made the NL, I would have had to wait for 30 minutes if I hadn't ran.
Now I'm home reflecting on my day. It was a good day. I tend to have a good night/bad day or good day/bad night. Trying to figure out how to have a an entire day of good. Working on it.