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my birthday is coming up. its on wednesday. i have been so excited over it and shit. that now all of a sudden i feel super down. why??
because having so many options but not getting any of what you really want sucks.
wow. i feel like the most incomplacent being on earth. i could pick. but i dont. i fucking need to feel this shit.
ah
i make no sense whatsoever. im not jolly like usual. i feel real shitty and my heart aches literally. i know i said like a month ago that i was gonna try and stay single for at least six months if not a year. but you know what.. i dont want that anymore. all those meaningless hookups that i could have in a year,i would trade anyday. for some time with somone who really would want me for me, and like me, inside and out too. someone whod appreciate all i have to offer, and would do anything for me.
ugh. this isnt like a song im writing or anything. but i bet that feeling this way would make me write wonders, and still feel like shit.
fuck
why am i living? what is my purpose in this life?
what the fuck do i do that no one else can accomplish?
im sure if there was somethign you could think of, i could think of someone who would do a better job.
im such a fucking mediocre, why the fuck am i like this now..
im fucking nuts. everyones said so.
let me like... fucking';af,klashk'
byeeeeeee
and the heartbeat stops.
because having so many options but not getting any of what you really want sucks.
wow. i feel like the most incomplacent being on earth. i could pick. but i dont. i fucking need to feel this shit.
ah
i make no sense whatsoever. im not jolly like usual. i feel real shitty and my heart aches literally. i know i said like a month ago that i was gonna try and stay single for at least six months if not a year. but you know what.. i dont want that anymore. all those meaningless hookups that i could have in a year,i would trade anyday. for some time with somone who really would want me for me, and like me, inside and out too. someone whod appreciate all i have to offer, and would do anything for me.
ugh. this isnt like a song im writing or anything. but i bet that feeling this way would make me write wonders, and still feel like shit.
fuck
why am i living? what is my purpose in this life?
what the fuck do i do that no one else can accomplish?
im sure if there was somethign you could think of, i could think of someone who would do a better job.
im such a fucking mediocre, why the fuck am i like this now..
im fucking nuts. everyones said so.
let me like... fucking';af,klashk'
byeeeeeee
and the heartbeat stops.