heart broken
"blood is thicker than water"...My sister A. walks around spewing this phrase out of her mouth on a daily basis...but as with so many people she does not stand behind what she says...she has chosen the rank hate infested water of my brother-in-law. I've written about this before...but it has surely come to a head. I am so tired of being left out of family functions. It hurts. I am there when the kids father is off in the bahamas on spring break (he's 32 and not in college..married to my sister L. with 2 kids-what the fuck do you think he's doing on spring break with 20 of his closest male friends?)...I am there when they are sick for days on end and my sister needs me...I stay then go home to fight the illness, that I have caught from the kids and my sister, on my own...I am there when my sister and her husband need a babysitter when they go to marriage counseling. I am officially pulling back. I will never abandone my kids...they will continue to be in my life...they will spend the night...go put put golfing...go to the beach...we will ride our bikes to the ice cream parlor way past their bedtime and enjoy the freedom... But I will not allow myself to be an after-thought to the adults anymore...