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as the old saying goes "people are put in our lives for only a short while. when we learn what they're supposed to teach us in life, then they are gone"
so what happens when they come back. do you pick up where you left off or is it supposed to be a new lesson. life is funny that way i guess. i mean i know that people get busy and have jobs and kids and school and other crap to do. that's not what i mean. what i'm talking about is the ones that change your life and let you know what it's like to be loved and that there is someone that cares about you. y do these people hafta go away? y do they return after they do? when people go away for a few months it's considered "life" people have things to do and they pop in and out of our lives. i don't know if this is normal for everyone else or not: but this is how my life has always been. a few months i would hang out with one friend and then move on to the next. and take my rounds with all my friends. and it was like it was normal for all of us. this was how we all were. live would take us to do other things and then we would always come back. but is this really normal? and is this same scenerio the same case when it comes to 12 years later?
i mean i log on and let my sis know that i'm still alive. she knows that i love her and that i don't have time to log on the puter much. AT LEAST I HOPE SHE KNOWS ALL OF THIS! i do try to get on when i get a chance to say hi and let her know that i love her and ems very much. and wish they would come c me or call me.
i call my friend carla and talk to her about once every couple of months and that is usually when a kid's b'day is coming up or something like that. i mean i understand that life comes and goes and people come in and out of our lives...........but after 12 years.............what kind of shit is that? this person has got me completely confused. about the life that i'm living and with whom i am living it with.
this person makes me see that love did exist in a true form at one time in my life and i am so confused. i don't know b/c i really thought he was gone forever. and maybe it is just feelings from the past but i don't think so. like my mom said and yes i should've listened: when you are still having feelings for someone other than the person you are supposed to marry then you shouldn't get married. well i thought she was wrong. but maybe she wasn't (OH GOD! DON'T LET HER KNOW THAT FOR EVEN ONE INSTANCE THAT I THOUGHT SHE WAS RIGHT! I WILL NEVER LIVE THAT ONE DOWN)
but maybe i shouldn't have gotten married. i havent' cheated...........not physically. but in my heart.........the feelings for this other haven't let up and they are only getting worse. i am so confused. i mean it's like when my hubby touches me "HIS" face pops in my mind. that is so wrong and i know this. but i can't help it. i gtry and try but nothing seems to work i can't get him off my mind. got i need help!!!!!
and the dreams that follow aren't any better. he occupies my mind and dreams and it is getting serious. i really need some advice. god please help me through this.
so what happens when they come back. do you pick up where you left off or is it supposed to be a new lesson. life is funny that way i guess. i mean i know that people get busy and have jobs and kids and school and other crap to do. that's not what i mean. what i'm talking about is the ones that change your life and let you know what it's like to be loved and that there is someone that cares about you. y do these people hafta go away? y do they return after they do? when people go away for a few months it's considered "life" people have things to do and they pop in and out of our lives. i don't know if this is normal for everyone else or not: but this is how my life has always been. a few months i would hang out with one friend and then move on to the next. and take my rounds with all my friends. and it was like it was normal for all of us. this was how we all were. live would take us to do other things and then we would always come back. but is this really normal? and is this same scenerio the same case when it comes to 12 years later?
i mean i log on and let my sis know that i'm still alive. she knows that i love her and that i don't have time to log on the puter much. AT LEAST I HOPE SHE KNOWS ALL OF THIS! i do try to get on when i get a chance to say hi and let her know that i love her and ems very much. and wish they would come c me or call me.
i call my friend carla and talk to her about once every couple of months and that is usually when a kid's b'day is coming up or something like that. i mean i understand that life comes and goes and people come in and out of our lives...........but after 12 years.............what kind of shit is that? this person has got me completely confused. about the life that i'm living and with whom i am living it with.
this person makes me see that love did exist in a true form at one time in my life and i am so confused. i don't know b/c i really thought he was gone forever. and maybe it is just feelings from the past but i don't think so. like my mom said and yes i should've listened: when you are still having feelings for someone other than the person you are supposed to marry then you shouldn't get married. well i thought she was wrong. but maybe she wasn't (OH GOD! DON'T LET HER KNOW THAT FOR EVEN ONE INSTANCE THAT I THOUGHT SHE WAS RIGHT! I WILL NEVER LIVE THAT ONE DOWN)
but maybe i shouldn't have gotten married. i havent' cheated...........not physically. but in my heart.........the feelings for this other haven't let up and they are only getting worse. i am so confused. i mean it's like when my hubby touches me "HIS" face pops in my mind. that is so wrong and i know this. but i can't help it. i gtry and try but nothing seems to work i can't get him off my mind. got i need help!!!!!
and the dreams that follow aren't any better. he occupies my mind and dreams and it is getting serious. i really need some advice. god please help me through this.