my poor broken heart

[queenrey]

i don't know how much one person can take. it seems like when i start to feel better something else happens.

my husband is lieing to me again. i found 2 e-mails that he sent this girl and he denys that it was him.

they were in his sent folder of his mailbox. yeah i know i shouldn't be reading his mail but i can't trust him.

i really need to get out. my heart just can't take it n e more. i love him so much and all he does is hurt me over and over. y can't i just leave?

everyone has always said that i was a strong person. if i'm so strong, then y can't i just pack my shit and leave.

i can't take the lies that he tells me n e more and i can't take my heart getting broken again. y does he hurt me so bad? all i wanna do is love him. god please someone help b/c i'm at my wits end here.

i know i should leave but i can't. i really love him and i want it to work so bad. but i don't wanna get hurt n e more. like i told him i haven't gotten over the first time and he expects me to believe him now? i just can't do that. my heart won't let me. it's like now i have this huge steel wall around my heart that won't let n e one in n e more.

y do i keep on getting hurt. i just wanted to love him. but obviously i'm not good enough for that.

i can't take this pain n e more.

all i do is cry and cry.
people wonder wats wrong and i tell them nothing i'll be fine
but i won't
i just don't know what to do n e more
he promises that he won't hurt me again
(yeah but he still hadn't admitted that he sent the e-mail)
and i can't trust him
i really need advice
someone please help me
i feel like that it's never going to get n e better
and my heart just can't take the pain n e more