hookah luka gawah means you love your sister...
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well since the last time i updated much hasnt happend... me and marco still arnt back together... i didnt expect that to change but yea... its kinda nice... we are still best friends... and we make out all the time... and we love each other... and sleep together and wakeup each morning holding each other... but it still bothers me, as much as he says he isnt going to be with other girls or hook up with them it still lingers in the back of my head... all i can say is i dont know if i love him like that anymore... i love him with all my heart... but i dont know if you call this a "feel like i am married to you for 20 years" love, or a "brother sister" love, or maybe i just do love him and i am trying not to so i dont get hurt... well anyways, im done with that...
im updating because i am at victorias house... and i am loving it... i miss her a lot... we are going to go out tonight even though she is on house arrest... i hope that we dont get caught... i really dont have to worry, i am 18, but shes 15, what if i get charged with kidnap... shit... and i hope you guys dont thing i am a loser because i hang around with 15 year olds, because all the the 15 year olds i hang around with go to my charter school, and they ARE mature because they have gone through some tough times... but i love em all, im moving in with one... christina... and i already live with one... so shit...
well i really dont have much to update about... ummm ill try to update tomorrow morning to telll how the night went... marco went to pats tonight... he may go to elephnat butte tomorrow, instead of to juarez with me like he had promised, but oh well i guess i cant really do anything about it... i just hope he comes with me... it would be lovely... the first time i am going out of the state i am going out of the country.... HOW FUCKING AWSOME!!!
i am going to miss church sunday... i really hope catie talked to them about moving youth group to a different night... it would be lovely... i love caties church, its small, and i feel sooo welcome, there are about a dozen kids like me that listen to emo and punk and music like mine... marco is about the only metal kid.... ha ha... but i ♥ caties church, more than calvary... truthfully i dont really like calvary... but yeah...
well since the last time i updated much hasnt happend... me and marco still arnt back together... i didnt expect that to change but yea... its kinda nice... we are still best friends... and we make out all the time... and we love each other... and sleep together and wakeup each morning holding each other... but it still bothers me, as much as he says he isnt going to be with other girls or hook up with them it still lingers in the back of my head... all i can say is i dont know if i love him like that anymore... i love him with all my heart... but i dont know if you call this a "feel like i am married to you for 20 years" love, or a "brother sister" love, or maybe i just do love him and i am trying not to so i dont get hurt... well anyways, im done with that...
im updating because i am at victorias house... and i am loving it... i miss her a lot... we are going to go out tonight even though she is on house arrest... i hope that we dont get caught... i really dont have to worry, i am 18, but shes 15, what if i get charged with kidnap... shit... and i hope you guys dont thing i am a loser because i hang around with 15 year olds, because all the the 15 year olds i hang around with go to my charter school, and they ARE mature because they have gone through some tough times... but i love em all, im moving in with one... christina... and i already live with one... so shit...
well i really dont have much to update about... ummm ill try to update tomorrow morning to telll how the night went... marco went to pats tonight... he may go to elephnat butte tomorrow, instead of to juarez with me like he had promised, but oh well i guess i cant really do anything about it... i just hope he comes with me... it would be lovely... the first time i am going out of the state i am going out of the country.... HOW FUCKING AWSOME!!!
i am going to miss church sunday... i really hope catie talked to them about moving youth group to a different night... it would be lovely... i love caties church, its small, and i feel sooo welcome, there are about a dozen kids like me that listen to emo and punk and music like mine... marco is about the only metal kid.... ha ha... but i ♥ caties church, more than calvary... truthfully i dont really like calvary... but yeah...