"Bad news never had good timing"
That hit the nail right on the head.
Emotions suck. That is the only word I can think of right now to describe it.
Stress sucks. All of this is building up, and it is time to let it all out.
For some reason this weekend, I broke down, again. Waves of anger, sadness, confusion, all crashed down on me. I miss my father. I miss him a hell of a lot. More then I ever have. The nurse was right. What happened to me, and my family, was not fair. There is nothing I can do about it though. I want to be able to do something, but I can't. That just makes me even more frustrated.
I was living in denial. Denial that he was really gone, 8 months (almost 9) and I just wouldn't believe it. Well, I guess this weekend I decided to believe it, and that is seriously one of the hardest things I have ever done. It is a step forward, I guess, but this step hurts so bad that I would rather not go through it.
School is stressful. I have so much to do, and no motivation to do it. I am just trying to pull through the best I can, it is almost over.
Friends, thank the Lord I have them, but damn, they can be EXTREMELY confusing. I don't feel like going into detail with this one right now.
I MISS MY SISTER. I worry about her a lot all the way out in Baltimore, and I really should talk to her more. I can't wait until mother's day when she comes home again. I should probably call her sometime soon.
SARAH I AM GOING TO TRY TO CALL YOU.
I wish she could see me in the One Acts this Friday, I know she would enjoy them.
I feel so overwhelmed.
I just want that feeling to go away....
...because all it is doing is dragging me down. I am so exhausted. So exhausted. I need a break. I need relief. I need something!
They say times like these, only make you stronger.....
we all can't be strong forever.....even the strongest need to breakdown, and someone to help them back up.
Emotions suck. That is the only word I can think of right now to describe it.
Stress sucks. All of this is building up, and it is time to let it all out.
For some reason this weekend, I broke down, again. Waves of anger, sadness, confusion, all crashed down on me. I miss my father. I miss him a hell of a lot. More then I ever have. The nurse was right. What happened to me, and my family, was not fair. There is nothing I can do about it though. I want to be able to do something, but I can't. That just makes me even more frustrated.
I was living in denial. Denial that he was really gone, 8 months (almost 9) and I just wouldn't believe it. Well, I guess this weekend I decided to believe it, and that is seriously one of the hardest things I have ever done. It is a step forward, I guess, but this step hurts so bad that I would rather not go through it.
School is stressful. I have so much to do, and no motivation to do it. I am just trying to pull through the best I can, it is almost over.
Friends, thank the Lord I have them, but damn, they can be EXTREMELY confusing. I don't feel like going into detail with this one right now.
I MISS MY SISTER. I worry about her a lot all the way out in Baltimore, and I really should talk to her more. I can't wait until mother's day when she comes home again. I should probably call her sometime soon.
SARAH I AM GOING TO TRY TO CALL YOU.
I wish she could see me in the One Acts this Friday, I know she would enjoy them.
I feel so overwhelmed.
I just want that feeling to go away....
...because all it is doing is dragging me down. I am so exhausted. So exhausted. I need a break. I need relief. I need something!
They say times like these, only make you stronger.....
we all can't be strong forever.....even the strongest need to breakdown, and someone to help them back up.