"and i know that waiting is all you can do sometimes..."
Gosh last night was fun. I spent the night at Jackie's, and, like always, we played Mario to no end. She talked to this guy Alex for like 9 years while I played for awhile. Overall it was cool.
Sometime when Jackie was still on the phone with Alex, I started thinking of Clay for some reason. Perhaps it's the fact that him and Alex are kind of friends? I don't know. All I know is I started thinking about him, and it fucking ruined everything. I didn't even think of anything specific about him... all I thought was "Clay" and it made me think of everything. I'm not even going to go into it.
Plus, Taylor said that now he's going to ask out that Amanda girl? The fuck? He told me like three days ago he wanted to ask out me and stay friends with Amanda. Apparently he wants to 'give it a chance'.
Sometimes I think that maybe I should just screw both Clay and Taylor and just move on with my life, like a sensible person would do. But I am just not sensible, and I prefer waiting for something that's never going to happen.
sometimes the last thing you want comes in first.
and sometimes the first thing you want never comes.
<33 rachel