Reality
I'm so close. So close to starting a new chapter in my life. I can't believe it. It's crazy to think that 4 years ago, I was walked on the Shenandoah campus eager to meet new people and find a home away from home. Little did I know that I was going to find those things and much more. In 14 days, I will be shaking Dr. Davis' hand and reaching for my diploma. Crazy! It's so crazy. And surreal. It's such a bittersweet moment for me.I feel so torn. Half of me wants to stay because of the bond I have created with my professors, my fraternity, and my friends. The other half is ready to start my career, think of Shenandoah as a learning experience, and PEACE THE HELL OUT! But, it's not that easy. I thought I would be able to leave with flying colors, but I know that deep down I'm lying to myself. I truly am going to miss these people.
I guess when it really hit home for me was the VA Tech tragedy....horrible. When I heard what happened I was in the conservatory. The first person I thought of was Kelly. I immediately called her and she already heard the news. I can't believe it. I can't believe that someone would go and kill 33 innocent people. It makes me violently ill. The night of the shooting, Shenandoah had a silent candlelight vigil for the victims and their families. I went. I prayed. And I cried. I cried for the victims, I cried for the shooter and his family, and cried for VA Tech. The next day, Gary Robbins announced a chapel service. I normally don't go to chapel, but I felt it was necessary for me to be there in order to reflect on the recent events. Miles Davis, a business school professor, got up to speak. He talked about how we need to forgive. We need to forgive people for the little things in life because they might be around the next day. We need to say, "I love you" to those we love because they could be gone before we know it. His speech spoke to me. He's right. For the past several months, all I've wanted to do is graduate, drive back to GA, and never talk to these people again. But, after listening to Miles' speech, I realized that if any of my friends died tomorrow I would be a mess. I wouldn't know what to do....
So, here I am 14 days away from graduation reflecting on the good and bad times I've had at Shenandoah. ::sigh:: I know this isn't goodbye. I refuse to let it be. I just keep telling myself this a fork in the road of life and we'll all be waiting at the next intersection.
I guess when it really hit home for me was the VA Tech tragedy....horrible. When I heard what happened I was in the conservatory. The first person I thought of was Kelly. I immediately called her and she already heard the news. I can't believe it. I can't believe that someone would go and kill 33 innocent people. It makes me violently ill. The night of the shooting, Shenandoah had a silent candlelight vigil for the victims and their families. I went. I prayed. And I cried. I cried for the victims, I cried for the shooter and his family, and cried for VA Tech. The next day, Gary Robbins announced a chapel service. I normally don't go to chapel, but I felt it was necessary for me to be there in order to reflect on the recent events. Miles Davis, a business school professor, got up to speak. He talked about how we need to forgive. We need to forgive people for the little things in life because they might be around the next day. We need to say, "I love you" to those we love because they could be gone before we know it. His speech spoke to me. He's right. For the past several months, all I've wanted to do is graduate, drive back to GA, and never talk to these people again. But, after listening to Miles' speech, I realized that if any of my friends died tomorrow I would be a mess. I wouldn't know what to do....
So, here I am 14 days away from graduation reflecting on the good and bad times I've had at Shenandoah. ::sigh:: I know this isn't goodbye. I refuse to let it be. I just keep telling myself this a fork in the road of life and we'll all be waiting at the next intersection.