A Better Read...Maybe
I feel much better today, or at least at this very moment. I have been dealing with many ups, downs, and just general craziness. Sometimes I just simply cannot deal with it in a reasonable way. Stress and worry take me over and I become more unpleasant than I ever imagined was possible. To those who've felt the effects of such misery, I do apologize, but please understand that I don't usually act without reason. Thank you to those who've opened up their arms to comfort me.
I had a long, strenuous exam in SED 402 but I think it'll turn out okay. I also had to turn in this huge packet with article summaries regarding a book we've been reading. I read it during the first week of classes because it was such an easy, interesting read. Then I went back and read it again to answer the questions. I've got a 96 average in that class right now, so here's hoping it stays that way. I studied this morning at work while text-messaging people. How's that for multi-tasking? I'm probably picking up some more hours this week, too, since my workload for school isn't so overwhelming right now. I'll work a full eight hours tomorrow and at least one shift on Friday. I can hardly believe the semester's almost over already. Furthermore, my college years are nearly over! I think the only thing I would change at this point is my behavior during my freshman year. If I could go back and do it again, I would make better decisions. Yay for hindsight. I am so talented at painting happy pictures of desirable situations in my head!
On the good side of life, I heard from Jess today and it seems as though I'll be able to see her and Lauren tomorrow. Last time I visited, Jess was sick and they were still adjusting to life with a new baby in the house. I'm really anxious to have a baby, especially now that *most* of my close friends are mommies. It'd be neat for our children to grow up and play together, but somehow I still think that their chidren will be old enough to babysit mine. There's some good in that too, though. Waiting, that is. Anyway, I am much happier today and still keeping it together in most areas of my life. Wedding plans are sort of up in the air, but we've made a guest list (which turned out to be much longer than we anticipated) and discussed possible themes. Molly, Marc's girlfriend, suggested a "Lemon-Lime" wedding. Lemons and limes could be the centerpieces for the tables and the colors, since we'll probably marry in nice weather, will be yellow and green, which can be really great symbols depending on the interpretation. I can find meaning in just about anything, but sometimes that works against me!
I've just been reading into things so much lately and it comes back to spank me and then I start to self-destruct. The cycle must be broken!
I had a long, strenuous exam in SED 402 but I think it'll turn out okay. I also had to turn in this huge packet with article summaries regarding a book we've been reading. I read it during the first week of classes because it was such an easy, interesting read. Then I went back and read it again to answer the questions. I've got a 96 average in that class right now, so here's hoping it stays that way. I studied this morning at work while text-messaging people. How's that for multi-tasking? I'm probably picking up some more hours this week, too, since my workload for school isn't so overwhelming right now. I'll work a full eight hours tomorrow and at least one shift on Friday. I can hardly believe the semester's almost over already. Furthermore, my college years are nearly over! I think the only thing I would change at this point is my behavior during my freshman year. If I could go back and do it again, I would make better decisions. Yay for hindsight. I am so talented at painting happy pictures of desirable situations in my head!
On the good side of life, I heard from Jess today and it seems as though I'll be able to see her and Lauren tomorrow. Last time I visited, Jess was sick and they were still adjusting to life with a new baby in the house. I'm really anxious to have a baby, especially now that *most* of my close friends are mommies. It'd be neat for our children to grow up and play together, but somehow I still think that their chidren will be old enough to babysit mine. There's some good in that too, though. Waiting, that is. Anyway, I am much happier today and still keeping it together in most areas of my life. Wedding plans are sort of up in the air, but we've made a guest list (which turned out to be much longer than we anticipated) and discussed possible themes. Molly, Marc's girlfriend, suggested a "Lemon-Lime" wedding. Lemons and limes could be the centerpieces for the tables and the colors, since we'll probably marry in nice weather, will be yellow and green, which can be really great symbols depending on the interpretation. I can find meaning in just about anything, but sometimes that works against me!
I've just been reading into things so much lately and it comes back to spank me and then I start to self-destruct. The cycle must be broken!