Sorry Folks, I know it's been a while
Well, the summer has been whipping by. I wish I could tell all of you that time flys when you're having fun, but that hasn't really been my style lately. Nope, all work and very little play. I find myself alone more that I wish to be and when given opportunities to go out, I turn them down because I am feeling too tired. I want to know where all my energy has gone. I remember having it at some point but now I can't seem to talk myself into being active. I've turned into this person that I don't know anymore, and it's scaring me so much I can't even breath. I wish I had like a 24 hour drill sergent to whip my ass into shape all the time. I think I just need someone to motivate me. I don't know. I'm sick of writing depressing things because people have enough drama in their lives, but to make more sense. I just ate an entire coffee cake from panera and I have watched an entire season of sex and the city. God I miss the times where I would not eat when I was depressed and now I've gone head first into sweetland. Toto, we are definately not in Kansas any more.