Sometimes we don't do things we want to do so that others won't know we want to do them...
I think the subject quote is one of the greatest M. Night quotes ever. Anyway, here I am. I could say that life has been crazy, but that would be an understatement. I feel like a little child who just keeps twirling around and around... My world is going to be spinning non-stop this year. I'm still working full time as a special education teacher, working a weekend job 2 Saturdays of the month, and taking three full time graduate classes. Somehow I'm trying to fit everything else in - but maybe that explains why I haven't been able to do SCA events and other activities I enjoy. I'm glad that this is my last year of graduate school. I love learning, but now that I'm in the "real world" I've learned that being out of school would give me time to do other things I enjoy. I feel like a withering flower daily because I haven't been able to write even a fraction of as much as I would like to. I would still like to continue my education, but I need to give it some time. I don't feel like I have the life experience I need to pursue a doctorate in a behavioral field right after graduating with my degree. I really want to be a certified BCBA, but I need to start studying until my brains explode because the exam is like a medical exam - you have to prepare this far in advance if you plan to be successful. I somehow need to jump start my research project too- the days are ticking away. I have an outline, I have a structure. I just need to sit down and type it all up. I'm counting on thanksgiving break and Christmas break for that. I thought I lost my research assistant. She got offered a paying job somewhere else, but so far she has been delayed. So she might come back. It almost makes me think it might not be the best idea to travel anywhere for the holidays and spring break. I have to get all this under control.
Things have been crazy. I'm swimming in 390 pages of paperwork that is overdue. I'm not getting in trouble, but it doesn't make my life much easier to not have this done. I try, and try, but the perfectionist in me won't settle for less then the best work. So it takes me longer than other teachers who don't care about particulars and write anything down. My former co-worker was so overwhelmed by this impossible feat, she developed severe health problems from the stress. She then had to quit, this job wasn't worth the health risk. I was sad to hear about this, but I understood where she was coming from. It has been hard, but I didn't really have time to grieve. The school immediately hired a new special education teacher and brought her in today. She seems really nice, it's just... she'll never be the co-worker I miss. I mean, the new lady was asking me a lot of questions she probably should have asked human resource or my supervisor. She was asking me about the history of the school, assaults, school policy and procedures. I didn't know what to say - I didn't want to lie; there is no way to really sugar coat the truth. I had to preface each answer with, "I don't want to lie to you, but please don't tell my supervisor I told you the truth..." I mean, I love making a difference in the lives of the children & my coworkers are great. It's just school procedures continue to be broken, inconsistent and lacking support from upper administration. Oh, and we work crazy hours - evenings and periodical Saturdays. I hated to bear all this bad news.
The English teacher just left too, and I miss her as well. Our last couple of days together were phenomenal. Thursday we acted out a fable. The following day we played my favorite game ever - Once Upon a Time story-telling card game except that the students wrote their stories down and shared them with the class. I mean I know I'll keep in touch with these people, but they will ultimately be missed.
On a happy note, I sewed myself my first costume ever! I really wanted to be Lulu from final fantasy, so I went through every pattern book and found a couple of patterns I could adapt together. I had been collecting belts since July, and a friend of mine donated 45 belts to my cause. She was going to make the same costume, but she was too overwhelmed by the complexity. For my first sewing creation, it wasn't bad. People recognized me at a friend's party last weekend. It still needs more work, but wow. It was the first time I sewed something really intense, so I'm really pleased with the outcome. I'll post some pictures in the near future.
I hope I can make it through the rest of the week. Friday I have two parties we have been invited to. Saturday our favorite club is having a costume party, so I definitely want to go. I went to a Halloween dance party last weekend, but they didn't play any Halloween music. So it was fun, but pretty much a "tease" because I wanted more... The in-laws are up so that gives us a little more freedom in some ways, less in other ways...
Well, it's getting late. Just wanted to give the latest updates of my great life. More to come...
Things have been crazy. I'm swimming in 390 pages of paperwork that is overdue. I'm not getting in trouble, but it doesn't make my life much easier to not have this done. I try, and try, but the perfectionist in me won't settle for less then the best work. So it takes me longer than other teachers who don't care about particulars and write anything down. My former co-worker was so overwhelmed by this impossible feat, she developed severe health problems from the stress. She then had to quit, this job wasn't worth the health risk. I was sad to hear about this, but I understood where she was coming from. It has been hard, but I didn't really have time to grieve. The school immediately hired a new special education teacher and brought her in today. She seems really nice, it's just... she'll never be the co-worker I miss. I mean, the new lady was asking me a lot of questions she probably should have asked human resource or my supervisor. She was asking me about the history of the school, assaults, school policy and procedures. I didn't know what to say - I didn't want to lie; there is no way to really sugar coat the truth. I had to preface each answer with, "I don't want to lie to you, but please don't tell my supervisor I told you the truth..." I mean, I love making a difference in the lives of the children & my coworkers are great. It's just school procedures continue to be broken, inconsistent and lacking support from upper administration. Oh, and we work crazy hours - evenings and periodical Saturdays. I hated to bear all this bad news.
The English teacher just left too, and I miss her as well. Our last couple of days together were phenomenal. Thursday we acted out a fable. The following day we played my favorite game ever - Once Upon a Time story-telling card game except that the students wrote their stories down and shared them with the class. I mean I know I'll keep in touch with these people, but they will ultimately be missed.
On a happy note, I sewed myself my first costume ever! I really wanted to be Lulu from final fantasy, so I went through every pattern book and found a couple of patterns I could adapt together. I had been collecting belts since July, and a friend of mine donated 45 belts to my cause. She was going to make the same costume, but she was too overwhelmed by the complexity. For my first sewing creation, it wasn't bad. People recognized me at a friend's party last weekend. It still needs more work, but wow. It was the first time I sewed something really intense, so I'm really pleased with the outcome. I'll post some pictures in the near future.
I hope I can make it through the rest of the week. Friday I have two parties we have been invited to. Saturday our favorite club is having a costume party, so I definitely want to go. I went to a Halloween dance party last weekend, but they didn't play any Halloween music. So it was fun, but pretty much a "tease" because I wanted more... The in-laws are up so that gives us a little more freedom in some ways, less in other ways...
Well, it's getting late. Just wanted to give the latest updates of my great life. More to come...