update
Im actaully pretty nervous so thats why I'm updating at 648 in the am!! I go to my first hospital intership thingy. I have no clue what to do. I think they think I know more than what I really do. I know I'm going to make myself look like a fool but that is just standard procedure. I just really don't want to mess up especially if its dealing w/ people lol. ya think!? I'm proud of myself though because I have not been hangin out w/ the guys that drink alot. Instead of getting totally shitfaced after work (and yeah last summer was shitface central) I have decided to just relax and watch whatever is on tv after I work out. Its not as exciting but it is healthier and I guess i'm happier too. I think I am to the point where the game is just so stupid and finding a guy is not that important. Everyone in the "game" is just looking for sex anyways and that is definitly not what I am in it for so I do not mind waiting it out lol. well here i go....