~ 21 ~
Is this it?
Is this how it is supposed to be? So unhappy? Am I supposed to be overwhelmed? Am I supposed to be over-stressed? Is this how I should feel? I don't think so. But it is the way I feel anyway.
I observe others. They are playing. They are partying. They are going on outings. They are going on dates. They are going on vacations. They are going on trips. They have plans. They have entertaining surprises. They are romancing and being romanced. They are dancing. They are learning. They are exploring. They are having adventures. They are following their passions and dreams. They are experiencing their young selves to the fullest of their potentials. They are enjoying life. They are having fun.
[Fun I want to have.]
And what am I doing? I am falling further and further behind from graduating. I am working two jobs, only to pay off debts. I am worrying about taxes. I am worrying about paying off student loans (even though I am still in school). I am not going out dancing. I am not going on vacations. I am not going on trips. I'm not going out on dates. :/ I am stressing. I am worrying. I am suffering from extreme back pains. I am feeling de-spirited and disenchanted. I am feeling overwhelmed.
Is 21 supposed to feel like 40? Am I supposed to feel so old, so young? It seems as if the only thing missing from this stress is a child. Oh wait, nevermind..
Is this how it is supposed to be? So unhappy? Am I supposed to be overwhelmed? Am I supposed to be over-stressed? Is this how I should feel? I don't think so. But it is the way I feel anyway.
I observe others. They are playing. They are partying. They are going on outings. They are going on dates. They are going on vacations. They are going on trips. They have plans. They have entertaining surprises. They are romancing and being romanced. They are dancing. They are learning. They are exploring. They are having adventures. They are following their passions and dreams. They are experiencing their young selves to the fullest of their potentials. They are enjoying life. They are having fun.
[Fun I want to have.]
And what am I doing? I am falling further and further behind from graduating. I am working two jobs, only to pay off debts. I am worrying about taxes. I am worrying about paying off student loans (even though I am still in school). I am not going out dancing. I am not going on vacations. I am not going on trips. I'm not going out on dates. :/ I am stressing. I am worrying. I am suffering from extreme back pains. I am feeling de-spirited and disenchanted. I am feeling overwhelmed.
Is 21 supposed to feel like 40? Am I supposed to feel so old, so young? It seems as if the only thing missing from this stress is a child. Oh wait, nevermind..