why im doing me so wrong i just keep holding you down
there is a person in my class named bam. what a great name. :) haha its the little things in life!
on a different note i couldnt sleep last night because i was going over horrifying things that had nothing to do with the cell, which i had just finished watching, weird. youd think id be disturbed going right to sleep from that but instead i was busy worrying about the evils of the world right here that are real. like those terrible disturbing things that happen to your friends or you or whatever. people are so unpredictable...i wish crazy and/or violent were very easily spottable from afar.
and then i was so very excited about my cousin getting married soon :D
and then i was frowny about the fact that ALL OF MY GIRL COUSINS ABOVE THE AGE OF ELEVEN ARE ENGAGED OR MARRIED.
and then i started thinking about how i maybe couldve made different decisions in certain situations in the past and what an awful line of thinking! what has happened is past and you cant do anything about it now but learn and change and grow. shake it off!
i keep procrastinating on job hunting or internship placement or anything, surprise. but i just want to do everything so i do nothing! argh! i dont want to be stuck in anything. i want to do something with writing, language, fashion, movies, sociology, sports. i dont feel like im unbelievably strong in any one path yet. but atleast i have location! lucky to have my grandpa.
on a different note i couldnt sleep last night because i was going over horrifying things that had nothing to do with the cell, which i had just finished watching, weird. youd think id be disturbed going right to sleep from that but instead i was busy worrying about the evils of the world right here that are real. like those terrible disturbing things that happen to your friends or you or whatever. people are so unpredictable...i wish crazy and/or violent were very easily spottable from afar.
and then i was so very excited about my cousin getting married soon :D
and then i was frowny about the fact that ALL OF MY GIRL COUSINS ABOVE THE AGE OF ELEVEN ARE ENGAGED OR MARRIED.
and then i started thinking about how i maybe couldve made different decisions in certain situations in the past and what an awful line of thinking! what has happened is past and you cant do anything about it now but learn and change and grow. shake it off!
i keep procrastinating on job hunting or internship placement or anything, surprise. but i just want to do everything so i do nothing! argh! i dont want to be stuck in anything. i want to do something with writing, language, fashion, movies, sociology, sports. i dont feel like im unbelievably strong in any one path yet. but atleast i have location! lucky to have my grandpa.