What am I getting myself into?
Why didn't I just listen to everyone. Dolls, school and work is hard enough, why start up with the old stuff. Did I really miss him so much? Is this what I want? To go back to someone who is so obivously wrong for me? I don't know if I'm just lonely or if I'm stupid. I made myslef sick Friday night and my doctor said I'd end up in the emergancy room if I didn't cut some of the stress out of my life. Everything is so messed up and I don't know if I can last another 3 weeks. I really don't know if I can. The only 2 people I really believe give a shit have their own stuff going on and I feel bad imposing. Maybe I should just give up because I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. Who'd really miss me if I were gone? I mean REALLY? I'm thinking not too many. Everyone's a fake. Everyone wants you to believe they care but at their convienence. You can't count on anyone.
Look at me. I'm turning into some emo brat who wants everyone to drop what they're doing and come to my rescue. Well don't. I can handle things myself and, if I can't, I can end things myself. I don't need all this in my life and I can't even tell my "friends" because they don't understand how it feels to care so strongly about someone, you'd rather get the shit beaten out of you then give up on them. I'm so screwed.
Look at me. I'm turning into some emo brat who wants everyone to drop what they're doing and come to my rescue. Well don't. I can handle things myself and, if I can't, I can end things myself. I don't need all this in my life and I can't even tell my "friends" because they don't understand how it feels to care so strongly about someone, you'd rather get the shit beaten out of you then give up on them. I'm so screwed.