When you start to doubt and question things, it's easy to forget that you're not the only one who has questions. I've been trying to find my place in the church for a while. My family attends a very conservative, very southern-feeling kind of church. It's what grandpa wanted, so we went, and we stayed there. I haven't been comfortable there in a while, but I don't know where else to go. I visiting another church for a few weeks, which was more "modern" and flashy, and it was okay but I didn't love that one, either. It feels like there's no middle ground.
My sister recently posted an
article on facebook that pinpoints exactly what I've been feeling for years: And proves that I'm not alone. It compares the conservative churches of former generations (ie, my current church) to the hip, coffeeshop-type churches that have been widespread lately (ie, the new church), but makes an important point: We don't want either of them.
So the question is, where is everyone going to church?
I don't live in a very diverse area. I stay at my church because there are no other options, and there's nowhere else I could go. I'm not going to jump from one country church to the other when I know it'll be much of the same. I need a place moderately conservative. I need a place that isn't afraid to pick apart the Bible to apply it to today. I need a place where my marital status doesn't matter, where I don't feel like a freak for being an unmarried 30-year-old woman.
I need a church that's relative to me. And I'm not the only one out there who feels this way. Somehow, that makes it better. But that still doesn't help me determine where I should go.