As I began slitting my wrist I thought to myself..."Why not just start a second one?"
Aside from the large crotch bulge, which is grossly underestimating reality, SL seems to just be a simple extension of RL. Sure there are inhibitions removed and the laws of physics are lax, but human nature is still preserved across the on line medium. As far as I'm concerned, I feel like I'm more or less the same person, though I can dance much better on here. Perhaps the main difference is that I actually communicate pretty much all I think. This is starkly different from RL. But as for what I want to look like, what my interest are, and what my goals in Sl are, they resonate with reality. I was saddened that I couldn't find a scientist or teacher type job. Hell, I can't even find a bar tending gig, which would be a lot of fun even in RL (I mean the ladies HAVE to talk to you then right? as long as their not with someone, the bastards). Anyway, people can have fun without money, and pretty much do anything without it. But vanity and materialism creep in and poof, theres a market for fake stuff. And of course, someone's making a buck off it. People don't seem as mean however, but there are always assholes who just annoy everyone.
I am learning also what it takes to get to know people, and a little about what romance and dating. I've expressed some resentment about the song and dance routines / mating rituals you have to go through. I haven't with anything too bad. In fact, most intimate moments have been born naturally out of casual conversation. I didn't get the impression I was in a farcical game (ironically enough, because this time I am in a game!). Apparently, I can be quite the charmer, and I tend to dominate the conversations (which I think Jill may attest to and is growing tired of, sorry Jill, but thanks for putting up with it). I feel like if I spoke completely freely with someone I'd usually end up making them laugh a lot, or perhaps getting slapped in the face (the latter being rarer). One of these days...one of these days...
SL has sort of gave me some insight on what I'm doing in my life. It's where I want to be given the choice. What I am unhappy with is that mind sets up too many barriers when it comes to socializing in RL. It totally dominates my, for lack of a better word, feelings. I was pretty gregarious when I was a child. Due to circumstances that I may or may not have discussed before, that was pretty much crushed. Since then I've felt too comfortable not taking social risks. But nothing ventured nothing gained (nothing lost also but thats really not important). That inability is somewhat removed from SL. Sometimes I still hesitate approaching certain people, but less so than RL. Even in RL, I'm beginning to take more chances. I'm remembering what my social niche was. How I miss it. It's very important to evolve the self independently of others (at least I feel this way), but its quite beautiful when you've crafted the part you wanted to play and you shine on the stage. That really makes L, R and S, fulfilling.
SL is not a substitute for RL by any means. But I think that there is a sort of quality SL offers that RL cannot. It's that mental connection between people. It's uninhibited, and very personal. It's as if, well no, it real is because you've let someone in your head, to hear your thoughts and explore your mind. At least this is the way I experience this because I write unlike I speak. When I speak I try to control what it is I say and how. Too many though process filter what I utter. Whereas in SL, it's more of free write; a continuous stream of thought with little or no censorship. Perhaps this another main reason SL is so enjoyable. I get to communicate in a medium much more suitable for my personal expression.
I am learning also what it takes to get to know people, and a little about what romance and dating. I've expressed some resentment about the song and dance routines / mating rituals you have to go through. I haven't with anything too bad. In fact, most intimate moments have been born naturally out of casual conversation. I didn't get the impression I was in a farcical game (ironically enough, because this time I am in a game!). Apparently, I can be quite the charmer, and I tend to dominate the conversations (which I think Jill may attest to and is growing tired of, sorry Jill, but thanks for putting up with it). I feel like if I spoke completely freely with someone I'd usually end up making them laugh a lot, or perhaps getting slapped in the face (the latter being rarer). One of these days...one of these days...
SL has sort of gave me some insight on what I'm doing in my life. It's where I want to be given the choice. What I am unhappy with is that mind sets up too many barriers when it comes to socializing in RL. It totally dominates my, for lack of a better word, feelings. I was pretty gregarious when I was a child. Due to circumstances that I may or may not have discussed before, that was pretty much crushed. Since then I've felt too comfortable not taking social risks. But nothing ventured nothing gained (nothing lost also but thats really not important). That inability is somewhat removed from SL. Sometimes I still hesitate approaching certain people, but less so than RL. Even in RL, I'm beginning to take more chances. I'm remembering what my social niche was. How I miss it. It's very important to evolve the self independently of others (at least I feel this way), but its quite beautiful when you've crafted the part you wanted to play and you shine on the stage. That really makes L, R and S, fulfilling.
SL is not a substitute for RL by any means. But I think that there is a sort of quality SL offers that RL cannot. It's that mental connection between people. It's uninhibited, and very personal. It's as if, well no, it real is because you've let someone in your head, to hear your thoughts and explore your mind. At least this is the way I experience this because I write unlike I speak. When I speak I try to control what it is I say and how. Too many though process filter what I utter. Whereas in SL, it's more of free write; a continuous stream of thought with little or no censorship. Perhaps this another main reason SL is so enjoyable. I get to communicate in a medium much more suitable for my personal expression.