Last/first day
First day of the new year and last day in the east coast (for now). Like many things in the recent past, it is bittersweet. I'm lucky enough to have woken up next to her. I love looking at her for a few moments while she's sleeping. She looks so serene. It's also disheartening to know that I no longer occupy her dreams. She really is my day break, and I feel like I'm going to be without one for sometime. Ambivalence is obviously not all bad, but it is so tearing on the soul. You get enough good to know what your missing, and the other half that is missing just rips at you. It makes the bad much worse, and the good so unfulfilling. The saving grace is that you can say that it's not all bad. This is the least I want for the new year. Please, not all bad. I know it will be difficult because I see serious challenges ahead. Two of the big ones I know I can handle. But the most important of all, as far as my heart and the big picture are concerned, is incredibly daunting. Most of it is out of my hands, but I'll plunge into it like a lemming. My head tells me I'm going to fall flat on my face. I think my heart senses it, yet I'll willingly tread on. Please, for the love of all that is worth loving, not all bad...
I hope your new year wishes are realized and that the year ahead brings all the prosperity you deserve.
I hope your new year wishes are realized and that the year ahead brings all the prosperity you deserve.