there is a light that never goes out
1. Hello and welcome to everyone who's friended this journal recently!! :D My (slightly out-of-date) personal info can be found here, and my contact info can be found here. Make yourself at home, and feel free to ask any questions! ;-)
2. I'm sorry for not being as around as I'd like to be; I really haven't been in a good headspace lately, and in a way I'm still not. I'm hoping things will get better soon, but it's not looking like it'll be the case right now. -_-
3. So it turns out I'll definitely have some sort of employment this summer! =D As expected, I'll be working as a gopher/paper pusher at my mom's workplace (which provides medical malpractice insurance for doctors) starting Wednesday, with good pay (way better than anything I could get at college). It'll also be on an as-needed basis, so it's not regular employment, so I might still have to look around for jobs (even though I really haven't been, uh, looking for any >_>;). It's not nearly the kind of thing I'd like to be doing over the summer (what exactly that sort of thing would entail, I have absolutely no clue, but it certainly wouldn't primarily consist of pushing paper around), and it certainly isn't anything cool like what at least half of my Facebook f-list is doing right now*, but it's something. Having some sort of income is the most important thing right now (especially in this economy), and hopefully by the end of the summer, even though I'll still be dirt poor, I won't be as flat-out broke as I am now.
*I know I shouldn't be comparing myself to other people like that, but in a way I always have, and it's only been recently that such comparing has caused me grief, so it's a hard habit to break out of. Of course, seeing other people do awesome things doesn't motivate me to get out and do something like it probably should, but it does the exact opposite to me instead -- and I think I've managed to convince myself that this is the only acceptable response to that sort of thing anyway. This is but one of many tiny, tiny reasons why I haven't been feeling all that great lately. God, I need to get over myself. :P
4. On Sunday, for Father's Day we went to the New Britain Museum of American Art, which I mentioned a few posts ago, and I really enjoyed myself! A lot of things we saw there really stood out in my mind, including: concept art for Christo and Jean-Claude's projects (including one where they depicted wrapping Snoopy's doghouse), sculptures by Solon Borglum (even if some of them were problematic, though this was my favorite), their huge display of Hudson River School art (a period that has very slowly been starting to fascinate me), anything by N.C. and Andrew Wyeth, an exhibit involving the creative use of pencils, an exhibition by Elana Herzog, this cup sculpture by Lisa Hoke, and an exhibit by Ruthie Davis shoes (which was very cool, even though I'm no fashionista/sartorialist). For a small museum, it had a lot, and we plan on making a return trip by the end of summer because they're starting an M.C. Escher exhibition next month (one of my favorite artists!), and maybe I'll have pictures too. ;-)
Then we went here for lunch/dinner, and......well. The food was really good, but it was nearly impossible to eat because there was just so much of it. If you want to go to a restaurant with extremely huge portions that will give you a heart attack at 21, go there. I tried having a ginormous plate of fettucine alfredo with shrimp and garlic bread after already having an already big salad with balsamic basil dressing and eggplant fries smothered in grated cheese. Yes, it sounds delicious, but not when you've only had 1/3rd of everything you ordered and you're already full. ^_^; My mom tried to be wise by ordering a salad, but not only was her salad much bigger than mine, but the pieces of chicken in it were huge. AND IT WAS ALL ON FLATBREAD. WTFF. D8 Yeah, they.....really outdo themselves there. Insane. Absolutely insane. XD
5. Speaking of food, I can't believe I've never heard of these guys before. OMG MY MOUTH IS DROOLING 8DDDDDDDDDDD
6. I completely agree with this secret posted on fandomsecrets a couple of days ago. And apparently I'm not the only one (and those who aren't agreeing are just derailing anyway :P).
7. Other stuff: My driving has been going really well, and I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow (technically today). Yay for no longer having to see the pediatrician -- I guess? XD
8. Meme time!
A. Stolen from eska_rina:
bold the women by whom you own books;
italicize those by whom you've read something of (short stories count);
star* those of whom you've never heard!
Andre Norton*
C. L. Moore*
Evangeline Walton*
Leigh Brackett*
Judith Merril*
Joanna Russ*
Margaret St. Clair*
Katherine MacLean*
Carol Emshwiller*
Marion Zimmer Bradley*
Zenna Henderson*
Madeline L’Engle
Angela Carter
Ursula LeGuin
Anne McCaffrey
Diana Wynne Jones
Kit Reed*
James Tiptree, Jr.*
Rachel Pollack*
Jane Yolen*
Marta Randall*
Eleanor Arnason*
Ellen Asher*
Patricia A. McKillip*
Suzy McKee Charnas*
Lisa Tuttle*
Nina Kiriki Hoffman*
Tanith Lee*
Pamela Sargeant*
Jayge Carr*
Vonda McIntyre*
Octavia E. Butler
Kate Wilhelm*
Chelsea Quinn Yarbro*
Sheila Finch*
Mary Gentle
Jessia Amanda Salmonson*
C. J. Cherryh*
Joan D. Vinge*
Teresa Nielsen Hayden*
Ellen Kushner*
Ellen Datlow*
Nancy Kress*
Pat Murphy*
Lisa Goldstein*
Elizabeth Ann Scarborough*
Mary Turzillo*
Connie Willis
Barbara Hambly*
Nancy Holder*
Sheri S. Tepper*
Melissa Scott*
Margaret Atwood
Lois McMaster Bujold*
Jeanne Cavelos*
Karen Joy Fowler*
Leigh Kennedy*
Judith Moffett*
Rebecca Ore*
Emma Bull*
Pat Cadigan*
Kathyrn Cramer*
Laura Mixon*
Eileen Gunn*
Elizabeth Hand*
Kij Johnson*
Delia Sherman*
Elizabeth Moon*
Michaela Roessner*
Terri Windling*
Sharon Lee*
Sherwood Smith*
Katherine Kurtz*
Margo Lanagan*
Laura Resnick*
Kristine Kathryn Rusch*
Sheila Williams*
Farah Mendlesohn*
Gwyneth Jones*
Ardath Mayhar*
Esther Friesner*
Debra Doyle*
Nicola Griffith*
Amy Thomson*
Martha Wells*
Catherine Asaro*
Kate Elliott*
Kathleen Ann Goonan*
Shawna McCarthy*
Caitlin Kiernan*
Maureen McHugh*
Cheryl Morgan*
Nisi Shawl*
Mary Doria Russell*
Kage Baker*
Kelly Link*
Nancy Springer*
J. K. Rowling
Nalo Hopkinson*
Ellen Klages*
Tanarive Due*
M. Rickert*
Theodora Goss*
Mary Anne Mohanraj*
S. L. Viehl*
Jo Walton*
Kristine Smith*
Deborah Layne*
Cherie Priest*
Wen Spencer*
K. J. Bishop*
Catherynne M. Valente*
Elizabeth Bear*
Ekaterina Sedia*
Naomi Novik
Mary Robinette Kowal*
Ann VanderMeer*
.......Yes, this is rather pathetic, isn't it? -_-; BTW, has anyone reading this read anything by any of these authors? If so, did you like what you read? What would you recommend? This list is making me really curious!
B. Stolen from demoneyeskyo87:
Leave a comment saying "TO THE EXTREME" and:
❶ I'll respond by asking you five questions to satisfy my curiosity.
❷ Update your journal with the answers to your questions.
❸ Include this explanation and offer to ask other people questions.
1) Favorite all time AniManga fandom? Why is it still your favorite?
Really hard to say............I'm normally a lurker in any sort of fandom, and I never really participate in any of them all that much. I normally don't jump into currently-running shows, and the ones I tend to lurk around in the most are either small or moribund/dead. :( That said, Paranoia Agent and Evangelion will always be dear to me, and I'm really glad I jumped into Durarara!! when I did. XD
2) Do you have a crush on an AniManga character? If so, who?
Not really -- I don't normally develop crushes on anyone, fictional or otherwise. I'm just not all that physically attracted to people, I guess. OK, I look at porn, but that's a different matter entirely. 8D I tend to like characters because of who they are, not what they look like. That said, the one that comes closest to quasi-crush status would probably have to be Walter von Schenkopp (or however the fuck you spell his name) from Legend of the Galactic Heroes. Which is rather odd, but oh well, can't really help to what you're attracted to, no? :3
3) How are you enjoying summer so far? Is it good?
*points up* ^_^; But yeah, while it could be much better, it is going good, as good as I can make it, I guess. And although a part of me would like to be more active and do more Interesting Things™, a part of me really enjoys being lazy and doing absolutely nothing most days. Which makes actually doing anything all that much harder. :P
4) What was your life goal? Do you still hold on to that dream goal?
I don't think I've ever really thought about what I wanted out of life all that much, to be quite honest. O_O; As long as I'm able to be independent/self-sufficient (and be emotionally OK with it), with a small group of friends I can trust and hang out with once in a while, with the ability to have good food, good entertainment, and the ability to travel to distant places once in a while, with a couple of accomplishments I can be proud of, and without hugely significant money troubles, I'll be good. Smashing the dominant paradigm into a million pieces would be great too, but right now, it's best to focus on baby steps -- becoming the change you wish to see in the world and all that. XD
5) Do you have a favorite video game? If so, what is it and why do you love it?
I have rarely played video games, I don't like video games all that much, and I don't think I'll start anytime soon. Uh, does SimCity 3000 count? 8D Yeah, I'm pathetic, but y'all know that by now. ;-)
2. I'm sorry for not being as around as I'd like to be; I really haven't been in a good headspace lately, and in a way I'm still not. I'm hoping things will get better soon, but it's not looking like it'll be the case right now. -_-
3. So it turns out I'll definitely have some sort of employment this summer! =D As expected, I'll be working as a gopher/paper pusher at my mom's workplace (which provides medical malpractice insurance for doctors) starting Wednesday, with good pay (way better than anything I could get at college). It'll also be on an as-needed basis, so it's not regular employment, so I might still have to look around for jobs (even though I really haven't been, uh, looking for any >_>;). It's not nearly the kind of thing I'd like to be doing over the summer (what exactly that sort of thing would entail, I have absolutely no clue, but it certainly wouldn't primarily consist of pushing paper around), and it certainly isn't anything cool like what at least half of my Facebook f-list is doing right now*, but it's something. Having some sort of income is the most important thing right now (especially in this economy), and hopefully by the end of the summer, even though I'll still be dirt poor, I won't be as flat-out broke as I am now.
*I know I shouldn't be comparing myself to other people like that, but in a way I always have, and it's only been recently that such comparing has caused me grief, so it's a hard habit to break out of. Of course, seeing other people do awesome things doesn't motivate me to get out and do something like it probably should, but it does the exact opposite to me instead -- and I think I've managed to convince myself that this is the only acceptable response to that sort of thing anyway. This is but one of many tiny, tiny reasons why I haven't been feeling all that great lately. God, I need to get over myself. :P
4. On Sunday, for Father's Day we went to the New Britain Museum of American Art, which I mentioned a few posts ago, and I really enjoyed myself! A lot of things we saw there really stood out in my mind, including: concept art for Christo and Jean-Claude's projects (including one where they depicted wrapping Snoopy's doghouse), sculptures by Solon Borglum (even if some of them were problematic, though this was my favorite), their huge display of Hudson River School art (a period that has very slowly been starting to fascinate me), anything by N.C. and Andrew Wyeth, an exhibit involving the creative use of pencils, an exhibition by Elana Herzog, this cup sculpture by Lisa Hoke, and an exhibit by Ruthie Davis shoes (which was very cool, even though I'm no fashionista/sartorialist). For a small museum, it had a lot, and we plan on making a return trip by the end of summer because they're starting an M.C. Escher exhibition next month (one of my favorite artists!), and maybe I'll have pictures too. ;-)
Then we went here for lunch/dinner, and......well. The food was really good, but it was nearly impossible to eat because there was just so much of it. If you want to go to a restaurant with extremely huge portions that will give you a heart attack at 21, go there. I tried having a ginormous plate of fettucine alfredo with shrimp and garlic bread after already having an already big salad with balsamic basil dressing and eggplant fries smothered in grated cheese. Yes, it sounds delicious, but not when you've only had 1/3rd of everything you ordered and you're already full. ^_^; My mom tried to be wise by ordering a salad, but not only was her salad much bigger than mine, but the pieces of chicken in it were huge. AND IT WAS ALL ON FLATBREAD. WTFF. D8 Yeah, they.....really outdo themselves there. Insane. Absolutely insane. XD
5. Speaking of food, I can't believe I've never heard of these guys before. OMG MY MOUTH IS DROOLING 8DDDDDDDDDDD
6. I completely agree with this secret posted on fandomsecrets a couple of days ago. And apparently I'm not the only one (and those who aren't agreeing are just derailing anyway :P).
7. Other stuff: My driving has been going really well, and I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow (technically today). Yay for no longer having to see the pediatrician -- I guess? XD
8. Meme time!
A. Stolen from eska_rina:
bold the women by whom you own books;
italicize those by whom you've read something of (short stories count);
star* those of whom you've never heard!
Andre Norton*
C. L. Moore*
Evangeline Walton*
Leigh Brackett*
Judith Merril*
Joanna Russ*
Margaret St. Clair*
Katherine MacLean*
Carol Emshwiller*
Marion Zimmer Bradley*
Zenna Henderson*
Madeline L’Engle
Angela Carter
Ursula LeGuin
Anne McCaffrey
Diana Wynne Jones
Kit Reed*
James Tiptree, Jr.*
Rachel Pollack*
Jane Yolen*
Marta Randall*
Eleanor Arnason*
Ellen Asher*
Patricia A. McKillip*
Suzy McKee Charnas*
Lisa Tuttle*
Nina Kiriki Hoffman*
Tanith Lee*
Pamela Sargeant*
Jayge Carr*
Vonda McIntyre*
Octavia E. Butler
Kate Wilhelm*
Chelsea Quinn Yarbro*
Sheila Finch*
Mary Gentle
Jessia Amanda Salmonson*
C. J. Cherryh*
Joan D. Vinge*
Teresa Nielsen Hayden*
Ellen Kushner*
Ellen Datlow*
Nancy Kress*
Pat Murphy*
Lisa Goldstein*
Elizabeth Ann Scarborough*
Mary Turzillo*
Connie Willis
Barbara Hambly*
Nancy Holder*
Sheri S. Tepper*
Melissa Scott*
Margaret Atwood
Lois McMaster Bujold*
Jeanne Cavelos*
Karen Joy Fowler*
Leigh Kennedy*
Judith Moffett*
Rebecca Ore*
Emma Bull*
Pat Cadigan*
Kathyrn Cramer*
Laura Mixon*
Eileen Gunn*
Elizabeth Hand*
Kij Johnson*
Delia Sherman*
Elizabeth Moon*
Michaela Roessner*
Terri Windling*
Sharon Lee*
Sherwood Smith*
Katherine Kurtz*
Margo Lanagan*
Laura Resnick*
Kristine Kathryn Rusch*
Sheila Williams*
Farah Mendlesohn*
Gwyneth Jones*
Ardath Mayhar*
Esther Friesner*
Debra Doyle*
Nicola Griffith*
Amy Thomson*
Martha Wells*
Catherine Asaro*
Kate Elliott*
Kathleen Ann Goonan*
Shawna McCarthy*
Caitlin Kiernan*
Maureen McHugh*
Cheryl Morgan*
Nisi Shawl*
Mary Doria Russell*
Kage Baker*
Kelly Link*
Nancy Springer*
J. K. Rowling
Nalo Hopkinson*
Ellen Klages*
Tanarive Due*
M. Rickert*
Theodora Goss*
Mary Anne Mohanraj*
S. L. Viehl*
Jo Walton*
Kristine Smith*
Deborah Layne*
Cherie Priest*
Wen Spencer*
K. J. Bishop*
Catherynne M. Valente*
Elizabeth Bear*
Ekaterina Sedia*
Naomi Novik
Mary Robinette Kowal*
Ann VanderMeer*
.......Yes, this is rather pathetic, isn't it? -_-; BTW, has anyone reading this read anything by any of these authors? If so, did you like what you read? What would you recommend? This list is making me really curious!
B. Stolen from demoneyeskyo87:
Leave a comment saying "TO THE EXTREME" and:
❶ I'll respond by asking you five questions to satisfy my curiosity.
❷ Update your journal with the answers to your questions.
❸ Include this explanation and offer to ask other people questions.
1) Favorite all time AniManga fandom? Why is it still your favorite?
Really hard to say............I'm normally a lurker in any sort of fandom, and I never really participate in any of them all that much. I normally don't jump into currently-running shows, and the ones I tend to lurk around in the most are either small or moribund/dead. :( That said, Paranoia Agent and Evangelion will always be dear to me, and I'm really glad I jumped into Durarara!! when I did. XD
2) Do you have a crush on an AniManga character? If so, who?
Not really -- I don't normally develop crushes on anyone, fictional or otherwise. I'm just not all that physically attracted to people, I guess. OK, I look at porn, but that's a different matter entirely. 8D I tend to like characters because of who they are, not what they look like. That said, the one that comes closest to quasi-crush status would probably have to be Walter von Schenkopp (or however the fuck you spell his name) from Legend of the Galactic Heroes. Which is rather odd, but oh well, can't really help to what you're attracted to, no? :3
3) How are you enjoying summer so far? Is it good?
*points up* ^_^; But yeah, while it could be much better, it is going good, as good as I can make it, I guess. And although a part of me would like to be more active and do more Interesting Things™, a part of me really enjoys being lazy and doing absolutely nothing most days. Which makes actually doing anything all that much harder. :P
4) What was your life goal? Do you still hold on to that dream goal?
I don't think I've ever really thought about what I wanted out of life all that much, to be quite honest. O_O; As long as I'm able to be independent/self-sufficient (and be emotionally OK with it), with a small group of friends I can trust and hang out with once in a while, with the ability to have good food, good entertainment, and the ability to travel to distant places once in a while, with a couple of accomplishments I can be proud of, and without hugely significant money troubles, I'll be good. Smashing the dominant paradigm into a million pieces would be great too, but right now, it's best to focus on baby steps -- becoming the change you wish to see in the world and all that. XD
5) Do you have a favorite video game? If so, what is it and why do you love it?
I have rarely played video games, I don't like video games all that much, and I don't think I'll start anytime soon. Uh, does SimCity 3000 count? 8D Yeah, I'm pathetic, but y'all know that by now. ;-)