A Wish Upon A Star..
hey..damn matt for making me lose the happiness that i had before! Im still glad that I get to see Miles and Richard tomorrow and yet..here I am sulking like an ass!! I NEED a guy friend...no matter who it is..
Let me explain..Matt(carnevil56) if you wanna bash him if you want to.. hasnt been on in a while..and so I know he is busy from doing stuff and yet I come on herre and wait..just wait..he got on yesterday when I was on..I emailed..I waited waited..he put on an Instant Message and so..I page him and saying so...umm..IM me when you get this...he signed off!! And then later this evening..I wrote him one of our emails..he got on and got off..without probably looking at a glance..and so I waited still thinking he just got kicked off..I waited for another hour..he got on...we talked..he wanted to watch a damn movie!!!! And so he got off again and told me he'd be on later.. The point is..I've been emailing him ever since..the day I returned and he hasnt even sent me a damn email!! And today I waited for him..I always wait for him..why? Jody said to me earlier..that you never could tell about online relationships! I guess he was right! Damn matt for putting me in this bad news and right before I see Miles no doubt who is indeed 24! soon to be 25.. *crying* why does matt do this to me..why do I always come back to him..he has hurt me without even knowing..and the first question out of my mouth was..are you mad at me..because he usually is about something..God I wish you could just give Matt a chance and see whats facing him right in front!!! I mean my screen name and my need for a guy friend! So I wish upon a star that I will indeed find the perfect guy..It seems stupid but most of my friends have their boyfriends to cherish and love while Im stuck in the dirt..anyway here is my deed. When I find a guy he is taken or older or just plain idiots! I want Matt..but he doesnt want me!!
Love ya
Alli
Let me explain..Matt(carnevil56) if you wanna bash him if you want to.. hasnt been on in a while..and so I know he is busy from doing stuff and yet I come on herre and wait..just wait..he got on yesterday when I was on..I emailed..I waited waited..he put on an Instant Message and so..I page him and saying so...umm..IM me when you get this...he signed off!! And then later this evening..I wrote him one of our emails..he got on and got off..without probably looking at a glance..and so I waited still thinking he just got kicked off..I waited for another hour..he got on...we talked..he wanted to watch a damn movie!!!! And so he got off again and told me he'd be on later.. The point is..I've been emailing him ever since..the day I returned and he hasnt even sent me a damn email!! And today I waited for him..I always wait for him..why? Jody said to me earlier..that you never could tell about online relationships! I guess he was right! Damn matt for putting me in this bad news and right before I see Miles no doubt who is indeed 24! soon to be 25.. *crying* why does matt do this to me..why do I always come back to him..he has hurt me without even knowing..and the first question out of my mouth was..are you mad at me..because he usually is about something..God I wish you could just give Matt a chance and see whats facing him right in front!!! I mean my screen name and my need for a guy friend! So I wish upon a star that I will indeed find the perfect guy..It seems stupid but most of my friends have their boyfriends to cherish and love while Im stuck in the dirt..anyway here is my deed. When I find a guy he is taken or older or just plain idiots! I want Matt..but he doesnt want me!!
Love ya
Alli