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my grandparents are fully moved in.
i think ive been avoiding them lately.
and yeah i know how selfish that sounds.
and it is selfish.
its just..i keep thinking about getting close to them and how much more that
will make it hurt when their gone.
buttt i need to take advantage of the time they are here so im going to start reverting and going back to how it was before. when i knew nothing was wrong.
justin and i are talking again. finally.
its..idontknow.
its weird. because we actually on good terms..were talking..and things are how they were before. but its just weird because the only we were on these good of terms..were when we were dating..
but hey, im not complaining. i want us to stay like this. justin and i were best friends before any of the shit went down between us. and thats how i want it to stay. i dont want things to end up like they were. which they probably will..but all i can do is hope they dont..
i think the friendship i had with morgan is going down hill..=[
we use to talk every possible second of the day we could..we use to just..we were inseperateable.
and now..we talking maybe once every couple of months..
aoisjd. my emoitions have been..too much for me lately.
ive been worrying about basically..everything.
even little stupid things will be the things that make me snap and fall.
and i find myself crying like 3/4 of the week..=[
i dont know whats wrong with me lately.
no ones ever satisfied with who i am..and their always wanting me to change.
i cant handle it.
im never good enough or pretty enough or..asodij.
anything you can think of.
i dont feel good.
again.
suprise suprise...hahaa.
You're Amazzzzing.♥
i think ive been avoiding them lately.
and yeah i know how selfish that sounds.
and it is selfish.
its just..i keep thinking about getting close to them and how much more that
will make it hurt when their gone.
buttt i need to take advantage of the time they are here so im going to start reverting and going back to how it was before. when i knew nothing was wrong.
justin and i are talking again. finally.
its..idontknow.
its weird. because we actually on good terms..were talking..and things are how they were before. but its just weird because the only we were on these good of terms..were when we were dating..
but hey, im not complaining. i want us to stay like this. justin and i were best friends before any of the shit went down between us. and thats how i want it to stay. i dont want things to end up like they were. which they probably will..but all i can do is hope they dont..
i think the friendship i had with morgan is going down hill..=[
we use to talk every possible second of the day we could..we use to just..we were inseperateable.
and now..we talking maybe once every couple of months..
aoisjd. my emoitions have been..too much for me lately.
ive been worrying about basically..everything.
even little stupid things will be the things that make me snap and fall.
and i find myself crying like 3/4 of the week..=[
i dont know whats wrong with me lately.
no ones ever satisfied with who i am..and their always wanting me to change.
i cant handle it.
im never good enough or pretty enough or..asodij.
anything you can think of.
i dont feel good.
again.
suprise suprise...hahaa.
You're Amazzzzing.♥