single and not looking
hello everyone ...
mike and i broke up i know ur like no surpize there and stuff like that but i really did try this time i was with him for almost 3 months but i guess sumtimes things arent ment to be i guess i am ment to stay single noone ever wants to work shit out cuz they hear about my bad rep from the passed and scare them away or cuz i fuck up ... so i am gonna stay single and just play the field untill i know in my heart and soul IM READY FOR LOVE im sick of hurting people i never knew wut pain was like to feel untill i lost my father at his funral i finally felt real pain and it was wierd i didnt know if i should cry or wut but i was shocked and i still am it still doesnt feel real to me.. cuz i never seen him every day anyways its like before i was mad at him for calling me cuz he was 5 hours away and all he had to do was taken a weekend off and drive to say hi and be with me but he never wanted to i understand work comes first but so do i dont i? but now that my father is gone all i wish is for a phone call...........but i guess now that he is gone i forgive him for all his screw ups cuz i know he was not perfect and i know now that he was druged n drinking problems and could not controll it no matter how hard you try.... its hard giving up the things you love most and beer was his best friend... but neways enough bout my dad and sysemapthie i am single now waiting for the one and im gonna stay single untill im ready but i will talk and get to know you guys but other than that im sorry im not ready for a relationship ... see ya guys around im sure love ya alll
please leave comments and tell me how u guys really feel rather its neg or pos i like to hear everything and then plan it my way... later hope i dont have as many etamies as i think i do...
mike and i broke up i know ur like no surpize there and stuff like that but i really did try this time i was with him for almost 3 months but i guess sumtimes things arent ment to be i guess i am ment to stay single noone ever wants to work shit out cuz they hear about my bad rep from the passed and scare them away or cuz i fuck up ... so i am gonna stay single and just play the field untill i know in my heart and soul IM READY FOR LOVE im sick of hurting people i never knew wut pain was like to feel untill i lost my father at his funral i finally felt real pain and it was wierd i didnt know if i should cry or wut but i was shocked and i still am it still doesnt feel real to me.. cuz i never seen him every day anyways its like before i was mad at him for calling me cuz he was 5 hours away and all he had to do was taken a weekend off and drive to say hi and be with me but he never wanted to i understand work comes first but so do i dont i? but now that my father is gone all i wish is for a phone call...........but i guess now that he is gone i forgive him for all his screw ups cuz i know he was not perfect and i know now that he was druged n drinking problems and could not controll it no matter how hard you try.... its hard giving up the things you love most and beer was his best friend... but neways enough bout my dad and sysemapthie i am single now waiting for the one and im gonna stay single untill im ready but i will talk and get to know you guys but other than that im sorry im not ready for a relationship ... see ya guys around im sure love ya alll
please leave comments and tell me how u guys really feel rather its neg or pos i like to hear everything and then plan it my way... later hope i dont have as many etamies as i think i do...