Forever Headdesking
Am not having a good Tuesday the 13th. Nope, nope.
This is the third day I've forgotten my vitamins, and the weather is non-thunder stormy, so I've got a migraine coming in. And I'm the usual sleep-deprived for Tuesday. Its too cold in the office, but now that its sunny now I'm sure it will be too hot and sweaty outside when I leave. My right eye still twitches. Might be suffering from very early pms. I caught my hand in the door of one of t he bathroom stalls this morning. And forgot to do the split-lunch-in-half thing.
Tried to work on some writing stuff, just couldn't focus. CF really is like having a hangover that never ends. Blogger-braggarts today are going on about the ongoing 'hustle' required for a successful goal-getting life, and I would like to smack them all in the head with fatigue, brainfog, and a migraine and see how well they do with *that*.
So u can probably tell that I'm very cranky today. Meh. At least when it's Friday the 13th, its still *Friday* :-P
The weekend was pretty low-key. Very brainless, but less cranky about it. Saturday was vegging and some light craftwork, but mostly it was a fatigue-hangover. So no Browncoats b/c no energy, oh well. Sunday I got to all the regular chores, and more extensive craft stuff. I watched about 2 seasons worth of Burn Notice while doing various things, and treated myself to my favorite lamb shoulder chops b/c they were on sale at the normal grocery store on Friday.
Lost a lot of time on FB and YT, which is starting to worry me. I would have gotten to bed at 11pm as planned hoped, except Youtube. And suddenly I lost 90 mins and still needed a shower. May have to restrict home-internets again, at least from certain social websites. But then what else would I do when I forget what's written in my dayplanner?
Finally have the two 'new' fabric backgrounds for my photo-lightbox cut to size & hemmed for easier use, tho they could use some ironing before the next slew of photos (which did *not* happen this weekend).
Also have the Doom Coat's lining cut out and marked up. Its really hard to do that in only 1 hour increments, but *only* cutting the lining out probably helped a lot with conserving time and energy. Will sew it up with basting stitches to see if I've got the fit right-ish, then adjust and/or just sew it properly, and then embroider the lining. Then its on to the black velveteen sometime after that. Tho if I don't get to that this weekend, it won't happen until after DCon, and that's not a problem.
Except now I'm worried I won't have enough time to finish my Regency-ish costume. Blah. Pls shuddup brain.
Intentionally eating more fat *might* be helping my stomach? It is being slightly less horrible to me today. Only time will tell, I guess. Without going back on a crazy diet, I may adjust the fat/carb/protein/veg ratio again in budget and meal planning.
Over the weekend I also went back into hypochondriac mode, researching all the digestive ailments I'd been looking at before. Until I realized, hey, if I could just remember to make an appointment with the GI my doc referred me to, she could probably figure out whether or not I had some of these problems *before* I go on another crazy diet :-P It hasn't helped me yet this week, or last week, but at least my brain woke up a little bit over the weekend.
Looked up that Tai Chi studio I've been trying to get to for *years* at this point. (ugh) If their schedule stays the same, and I get the work schedule I want for the fall, I'll easily be able to take either of the classes I want. Could actually do both time-wise, but not so much $$ wise. If I can just remember its there this year. Would like to at least try exercise again to see if it hurts me.
Sho frustrating. There are things I *want* to do, and I have the time, and they are not at all frightening. I just have no brain-spoons for them. On a bad-to-average day I hardly remember I have any goals or projects, and this month I have no idea why that is. OK, I have a few ideas as stated last week (food, craft binging, sleep dep) but the bad days are that much more frustrating when you haven't had a good day in a while. I have to remind myself that it was the same way back in March (when I already had a crazy diet to follow), but that's only making it more depressing. I've been unable to do much at all this year, and I just can't figure out why.
I have a list of things to do tonite written up in my dayplanner. Fix my Paypal account, finish the current wave of bug-proofing the chantry, and put together my vitamin cases for the week (albeit 2 days late :-P). Btu writing things down only works if you remember to read the things later. And at present, there is a hole in my brain where all the info dribbles out.
I really miss being able to brain. Soon, back to the drawing board, if I can remember where it is.
<3 Chrysilla
Crossposted from Dreamwidth, http://chrysilla.dreamwidth.org/
This is the third day I've forgotten my vitamins, and the weather is non-thunder stormy, so I've got a migraine coming in. And I'm the usual sleep-deprived for Tuesday. Its too cold in the office, but now that its sunny now I'm sure it will be too hot and sweaty outside when I leave. My right eye still twitches. Might be suffering from very early pms. I caught my hand in the door of one of t he bathroom stalls this morning. And forgot to do the split-lunch-in-half thing.
Tried to work on some writing stuff, just couldn't focus. CF really is like having a hangover that never ends. Blogger-braggarts today are going on about the ongoing 'hustle' required for a successful goal-getting life, and I would like to smack them all in the head with fatigue, brainfog, and a migraine and see how well they do with *that*.
So u can probably tell that I'm very cranky today. Meh. At least when it's Friday the 13th, its still *Friday* :-P
The weekend was pretty low-key. Very brainless, but less cranky about it. Saturday was vegging and some light craftwork, but mostly it was a fatigue-hangover. So no Browncoats b/c no energy, oh well. Sunday I got to all the regular chores, and more extensive craft stuff. I watched about 2 seasons worth of Burn Notice while doing various things, and treated myself to my favorite lamb shoulder chops b/c they were on sale at the normal grocery store on Friday.
Lost a lot of time on FB and YT, which is starting to worry me. I would have gotten to bed at 11pm as planned hoped, except Youtube. And suddenly I lost 90 mins and still needed a shower. May have to restrict home-internets again, at least from certain social websites. But then what else would I do when I forget what's written in my dayplanner?
Finally have the two 'new' fabric backgrounds for my photo-lightbox cut to size & hemmed for easier use, tho they could use some ironing before the next slew of photos (which did *not* happen this weekend).
Also have the Doom Coat's lining cut out and marked up. Its really hard to do that in only 1 hour increments, but *only* cutting the lining out probably helped a lot with conserving time and energy. Will sew it up with basting stitches to see if I've got the fit right-ish, then adjust and/or just sew it properly, and then embroider the lining. Then its on to the black velveteen sometime after that. Tho if I don't get to that this weekend, it won't happen until after DCon, and that's not a problem.
Except now I'm worried I won't have enough time to finish my Regency-ish costume. Blah. Pls shuddup brain.
Intentionally eating more fat *might* be helping my stomach? It is being slightly less horrible to me today. Only time will tell, I guess. Without going back on a crazy diet, I may adjust the fat/carb/protein/veg ratio again in budget and meal planning.
Over the weekend I also went back into hypochondriac mode, researching all the digestive ailments I'd been looking at before. Until I realized, hey, if I could just remember to make an appointment with the GI my doc referred me to, she could probably figure out whether or not I had some of these problems *before* I go on another crazy diet :-P It hasn't helped me yet this week, or last week, but at least my brain woke up a little bit over the weekend.
Looked up that Tai Chi studio I've been trying to get to for *years* at this point. (ugh) If their schedule stays the same, and I get the work schedule I want for the fall, I'll easily be able to take either of the classes I want. Could actually do both time-wise, but not so much $$ wise. If I can just remember its there this year. Would like to at least try exercise again to see if it hurts me.
Sho frustrating. There are things I *want* to do, and I have the time, and they are not at all frightening. I just have no brain-spoons for them. On a bad-to-average day I hardly remember I have any goals or projects, and this month I have no idea why that is. OK, I have a few ideas as stated last week (food, craft binging, sleep dep) but the bad days are that much more frustrating when you haven't had a good day in a while. I have to remind myself that it was the same way back in March (when I already had a crazy diet to follow), but that's only making it more depressing. I've been unable to do much at all this year, and I just can't figure out why.
I have a list of things to do tonite written up in my dayplanner. Fix my Paypal account, finish the current wave of bug-proofing the chantry, and put together my vitamin cases for the week (albeit 2 days late :-P). Btu writing things down only works if you remember to read the things later. And at present, there is a hole in my brain where all the info dribbles out.
I really miss being able to brain. Soon, back to the drawing board, if I can remember where it is.
<3 Chrysilla
Crossposted from Dreamwidth, http://chrysilla.dreamwidth.org/