Lambchops will improve my outlook considerably.
My new health rating scale is still helping me keep things straight in my head, yay. 1-10 just didn't work, I'm too brain fogged to keep track of ten whole settings.
This weekend was ... varied. Saturday I suddenly lost my motor functions and started getting dizzy (not unusual for me), so I put off washing the bed linens again b/c I didn't think I was up for the full cardio workout it entailed. But aside from that:
-Got my usual chores done.
-Started watching a JL cartoon b/c Netflix just added a bunch of DC and other CTN shows to their instant service.
-Cleaned some of the kitchen floor after a 'bad banana' incident.
-Paid the bills, without having to transfer $$ out of savings again. Yay!
-Went thru the kitchen and pantry and cleared out more space by utilizing gf pancake mix with hazlenut milk. They were ... OK. I like the banana pancakes better, but maybe I'll add some baking powder to that recipe for more fluffiness. Also used the last of the hazlenut milk (they say to use it within a week, but it really doesn't seem to go bad) for hot chocolate with peppermint extract. Mmmmmm.
-Wrote out a ... reflection? On what I've been eating and how much. Not really a plan for the future, tho. Nutrition still confuses me.
-Catalogged most of the new jewelry I've made this year, tho I think I forgot a pair of earrings. Worked on a new way to price the woven seed bead pieces which is working out better.
-Set up my light box and took between 250 and 300 photos of the new jewelry pieces. With large fabric scraps for a background instead of the old boring grey.
-Tried to figure out if my older camera is really broken or not. I think its not sure. Also, my newer camera thinks the batteries are always dying, but that may be the fault of the rechargeable batteries themselves, which didn't actually fail during the 'shoot' despite the blinking light on the camera's screen.
-Had the best pan-fried lambchop EVAR. OMG. Saturday I opened the package, fried one and put the other in a plastic bag with garlic, olive oil, and rosemary for the next day. Sunday, heated pan around 8, 3 mins each side, bit more back on first side for crustiness. OMNOMNOMNOM. Also ate possibly too much asparagus (drizzled with pan drippings), but did not actually explode, so everything's OK. Still having trouble eating appropriate amounts of things on the weekends.
So yah, food is still confusing. Weekday-wise, I analyzed what and how much I eat over the course of a week, partially to help with meal budgeting. It looks like my diet is about 70% plants, 27% animal meats, and the rest is chocolate and rice cakes. I nom about 2.8 lbs of food a day, but only take in 1500ish calories? I get slightly more than my recommended fiber intake (might explain recent tummy issues). And 150 out of the recommended 200 carbs per day.
As far as I can tell I'm not losing weight (*now* I might be curious enough to buy a bathroom scale). But ... should I be? I don't feel any worse than usual for accidentally low carb-ing my diet. Might cut it down to 2 lbs via my vegetable doses, tho, to cut down on the excess fiber which is making my tummy unhappy in new ways. A lot of paleo diet folks seem to aim for a 50/50 balance of plant/animal, but I'm not properly paleo anyway.
And I'm not good at balancing my weekend meals, but maybe I just need to make a point of buying some extra meat & veg on Friday night, like I did last week. Tho maybe not at the Foodtown, cuz they bait-and-switched me on sale prices again, this time on lamb chops :-P
Decided to take just a couple days off for my b'day next month, on the Friday before and Monday after so I can a) get a 4 day weekend, and b) miss my two 'closing' nights which tend to be more annoying when its finals week. And that leaves plenty of time off for DCon, a 'pillow' in case of extended illness, and an extra week off for winter break.
Am less sure about going on a spending spree for my b'day. Might lose control. But April would have been more in the black if not for being late on my sales tax and missing that one therapy session, so assuming nothing like that happens in May I might be OK? Maybe I'll just do a BPAL run, and get myself those new/old walking shoes, tho was going to do the latter anyway.
Unsure about the fancy chocolate, given that I live in NYC, but I dislike the fancy grocery stores where one gets the fancy chocolate. And not sure if I want to go to Chocolate Haven, b/c its depressing to get plain (tho nummy) dark chocolate bars when there's a counter full of bonbons you can't eat (dairy, possible gluten intrusion). But if anyone has any recs on dairy/gluten-free fancy chocolate, feel free to comment.
I still think the hermitting is helping me get things together. My anxiety problems seem to be lessening a bit now that I have more space to notice and work on them. Less hypervigilant anxiety-hiccups. And more refreshing sleep after acupuncture last Wednesday nite, but still having vivid dreams, so is that not a symptom of my sleep disorder afterall? Ugh, brainwaves. I wake up with tense neck and shoulder muscles most mornings, but that could also mean I need a new pillow.
I'm also starting to notice there *are* some anxiety bits stopping me from working on the podcast project, tho a lot of it is also still just forgetting I have one. I'm worried about success bringing conflict, given my experience with similar projects in the past. However, in larping and improv you have to put up with other ppl's drama b/c you just need as many warm bodies involved as you can get to show up.
But now what I want to put together actually benefits from fewer people, so I can pick and choose who is involved. And politely decline people who might try to invite themselves in and take over (probably not as likely as I think it is, but I've had some really nasty experiences). If formerly trusted associates flake out, they can be replaced. If either sort of party says nasty things about me behind my back after that, F#$% them.
Also, I want to learn all the bits so I can run the whole operation, or as much as possible, on my own. But that is a lot of stuff to learn, and it looks sho overwhelming that I don't work on the bits I *can* just do now. So now when I remember to think about it, I'm just going to focus on the writing. I know how to do that bit. Can't do any of the other bits without that.
I wonder if that effects my jewelry performance. I'm coming to terms with the fact that while I tend to do all of the data entry in batches, its not that horrible individually. But cataloging a ton of pieces all at once, and editing tons of photos all at once, that makes it seem a lot more boring and tedious. But unfortunately, if I try to do it in smaller batches I just forget and put it off for months. So in both cases, the combo of anxiety and brain fog is a big wrench in the works.
This weekend got eaten by jewelry (tho that's not a bad thing) so maybe next weekend will be writing. Oh, except for one event. Darnit, next weekend then. Or maybe some weeknights if I'm lucky and don't lose track of my motor functions again.
Tho there are also a ton of cartoons I'd like to catch up on via Netflix. Whups :-)
<3 Chrysilla
Crossposted from Dreamwidth, http://chrysilla.dreamwidth.org/
This weekend was ... varied. Saturday I suddenly lost my motor functions and started getting dizzy (not unusual for me), so I put off washing the bed linens again b/c I didn't think I was up for the full cardio workout it entailed. But aside from that:
-Got my usual chores done.
-Started watching a JL cartoon b/c Netflix just added a bunch of DC and other CTN shows to their instant service.
-Cleaned some of the kitchen floor after a 'bad banana' incident.
-Paid the bills, without having to transfer $$ out of savings again. Yay!
-Went thru the kitchen and pantry and cleared out more space by utilizing gf pancake mix with hazlenut milk. They were ... OK. I like the banana pancakes better, but maybe I'll add some baking powder to that recipe for more fluffiness. Also used the last of the hazlenut milk (they say to use it within a week, but it really doesn't seem to go bad) for hot chocolate with peppermint extract. Mmmmmm.
-Wrote out a ... reflection? On what I've been eating and how much. Not really a plan for the future, tho. Nutrition still confuses me.
-Catalogged most of the new jewelry I've made this year, tho I think I forgot a pair of earrings. Worked on a new way to price the woven seed bead pieces which is working out better.
-Set up my light box and took between 250 and 300 photos of the new jewelry pieces. With large fabric scraps for a background instead of the old boring grey.
-Tried to figure out if my older camera is really broken or not. I think its not sure. Also, my newer camera thinks the batteries are always dying, but that may be the fault of the rechargeable batteries themselves, which didn't actually fail during the 'shoot' despite the blinking light on the camera's screen.
-Had the best pan-fried lambchop EVAR. OMG. Saturday I opened the package, fried one and put the other in a plastic bag with garlic, olive oil, and rosemary for the next day. Sunday, heated pan around 8, 3 mins each side, bit more back on first side for crustiness. OMNOMNOMNOM. Also ate possibly too much asparagus (drizzled with pan drippings), but did not actually explode, so everything's OK. Still having trouble eating appropriate amounts of things on the weekends.
So yah, food is still confusing. Weekday-wise, I analyzed what and how much I eat over the course of a week, partially to help with meal budgeting. It looks like my diet is about 70% plants, 27% animal meats, and the rest is chocolate and rice cakes. I nom about 2.8 lbs of food a day, but only take in 1500ish calories? I get slightly more than my recommended fiber intake (might explain recent tummy issues). And 150 out of the recommended 200 carbs per day.
As far as I can tell I'm not losing weight (*now* I might be curious enough to buy a bathroom scale). But ... should I be? I don't feel any worse than usual for accidentally low carb-ing my diet. Might cut it down to 2 lbs via my vegetable doses, tho, to cut down on the excess fiber which is making my tummy unhappy in new ways. A lot of paleo diet folks seem to aim for a 50/50 balance of plant/animal, but I'm not properly paleo anyway.
And I'm not good at balancing my weekend meals, but maybe I just need to make a point of buying some extra meat & veg on Friday night, like I did last week. Tho maybe not at the Foodtown, cuz they bait-and-switched me on sale prices again, this time on lamb chops :-P
Decided to take just a couple days off for my b'day next month, on the Friday before and Monday after so I can a) get a 4 day weekend, and b) miss my two 'closing' nights which tend to be more annoying when its finals week. And that leaves plenty of time off for DCon, a 'pillow' in case of extended illness, and an extra week off for winter break.
Am less sure about going on a spending spree for my b'day. Might lose control. But April would have been more in the black if not for being late on my sales tax and missing that one therapy session, so assuming nothing like that happens in May I might be OK? Maybe I'll just do a BPAL run, and get myself those new/old walking shoes, tho was going to do the latter anyway.
Unsure about the fancy chocolate, given that I live in NYC, but I dislike the fancy grocery stores where one gets the fancy chocolate. And not sure if I want to go to Chocolate Haven, b/c its depressing to get plain (tho nummy) dark chocolate bars when there's a counter full of bonbons you can't eat (dairy, possible gluten intrusion). But if anyone has any recs on dairy/gluten-free fancy chocolate, feel free to comment.
I still think the hermitting is helping me get things together. My anxiety problems seem to be lessening a bit now that I have more space to notice and work on them. Less hypervigilant anxiety-hiccups. And more refreshing sleep after acupuncture last Wednesday nite, but still having vivid dreams, so is that not a symptom of my sleep disorder afterall? Ugh, brainwaves. I wake up with tense neck and shoulder muscles most mornings, but that could also mean I need a new pillow.
I'm also starting to notice there *are* some anxiety bits stopping me from working on the podcast project, tho a lot of it is also still just forgetting I have one. I'm worried about success bringing conflict, given my experience with similar projects in the past. However, in larping and improv you have to put up with other ppl's drama b/c you just need as many warm bodies involved as you can get to show up.
But now what I want to put together actually benefits from fewer people, so I can pick and choose who is involved. And politely decline people who might try to invite themselves in and take over (probably not as likely as I think it is, but I've had some really nasty experiences). If formerly trusted associates flake out, they can be replaced. If either sort of party says nasty things about me behind my back after that, F#$% them.
Also, I want to learn all the bits so I can run the whole operation, or as much as possible, on my own. But that is a lot of stuff to learn, and it looks sho overwhelming that I don't work on the bits I *can* just do now. So now when I remember to think about it, I'm just going to focus on the writing. I know how to do that bit. Can't do any of the other bits without that.
I wonder if that effects my jewelry performance. I'm coming to terms with the fact that while I tend to do all of the data entry in batches, its not that horrible individually. But cataloging a ton of pieces all at once, and editing tons of photos all at once, that makes it seem a lot more boring and tedious. But unfortunately, if I try to do it in smaller batches I just forget and put it off for months. So in both cases, the combo of anxiety and brain fog is a big wrench in the works.
This weekend got eaten by jewelry (tho that's not a bad thing) so maybe next weekend will be writing. Oh, except for one event. Darnit, next weekend then. Or maybe some weeknights if I'm lucky and don't lose track of my motor functions again.
Tho there are also a ton of cartoons I'd like to catch up on via Netflix. Whups :-)
<3 Chrysilla
Crossposted from Dreamwidth, http://chrysilla.dreamwidth.org/