Whack-a-Mole
Still alive. I think?
Wicked Faire was a lot of fun. Even though I was feeling pretty wiped out, despite surprise days off before hand, but it was easy enough to chill at my booth and let the con come to me. And the lower table price took a HUGE weight off my mind. And we had really nice neighbors, and really good traffic flow. I brought the puppet, which actually made salesmanship a lot easier for me. W00t!
It was a good reintroduction to sellin stuffs in person, and I'm looking forward to Steampunk World's Faire with my two friends' jewelry companies. We've been approved for hotel-room vending so all of my nefarious b'day plans are coming together. Yay!
Unfortunately, aside from that there were many weeks of badness for my brain. First there was the massive roach incident in January, but then a week before Wicked I had a FRIKING MOUSE in my home. On the 15th floor of a building that does not have hollow walls. Just... ARGH. The anxiety backlash of that was a lot worse than the roach, I had to stay over my friend's house overnight, it was pretty bad. And just as I was getting over the roach incident, so all of *those* feelings came back too.
The Monday before Wicked, a big water tank on the roof of my work-building broke and flooded the whole building. The library I work in is the second floor down, and is probably the only floor with extensive carpeting instead of linoleum, so we got some extra time off while people came in to repair the damage. It was still pretty wet and disheveled when we came back, and only this week things seem to be going back to normal. All of last week I had an obstacle course of extra displaced furniture between the door and my desk, that was not fun. Not to mention displaced books to look for, loud fans, and our new carpets getting pulled back up. Barely any books were damaged (about 20) so the worst part of this so far has been all our newly renovated stuff getting wrecked and thrown out. And the renovation wasn't fun for me in the first place. At least this work stress (supposedly) has a time limit?
So for the last few weeks, between the fun Wicked Faire, office stress, and the brain-cracking phobias, I've been really f'ing drained. Being at home is not relaxing when you're afraid to work in your kitchen, and looking nervously in all the dark corners every five minutes. It slowly sucked all the excitement out of upcoming SWF, ICON (oh F$%# I still need to buy my ticket), and other things. Last week I felt like I'd been thrown back into November as Little Miss Mononucleosis. Too tired to have a social life, frequent migraines, misery at my inability to do anything with my marvelous plans and schemes. I am sho frustrated, considering how much better I felt in early January, and how Wicked Faire turned out well.
No writing since before Wicked Faire. Actually, I don't think I've written anything new for the podcast project since right before the roach sighting in January. I was focusing on making more shinies for Wicked Faire on purpose, but my plans to plunge back into teh writings the week after con did not work out.
Instead of writing or getting my business stuff prepped for SWF items, I took out a sewing project. I'm not sure how it happened, but the Thursday after Wicked I just really wanted to sew somethin. I stopped looking at FMG and started reading sewing blogs again. Just, yikes, wth.
I'm still not fast at it (it took a whole weekend), but the fabric cutting went a LOT faster now that I have a rotary cutter and mat. And it was the jacket pattern again, same as the velvet jacket, but this time with corduroy as recommended. I still need to do the buttons (maybe, I may do a clasp instead) and tweak the lining, and see if pressing/steaming helps a bit, but for the most part it is a jacket, and its a bit snug but it fits. I also cut out pieces for a knit wrap dress that I just finished this weekend past. And that went really f'ing quick, so I may try to make some more knit items before Spring actually shows up. Or I may put it all back again and work on SWF, like a practical crazy person.
And instead of looking through my supplies and ordering stuff for SWF jewelry making, I looked through my sewing supplies and ordered a bunch of patterns and swatches and notions. No full pieces of fabric, tho. At least I was able to resist that much temptation.
Sure, I really needed a weekend for myself and jewelry de-tox, but I'm worried about my energy levels plummeting again after I take out the sewing. And then there's all the costume envy that perked up while I was at Wicked Faire. Argh. However, there is the fact that I was more firmly stuck on the mono-rail the last time I was sewing frequently, that may be why it was so frustrating and time consuming. I guess I'll just have to see.
Every time I see something with puppets, I wanna do something with puppets. But I have no outlet there, and no energy to go looking for something new. *grumps* At least Dusk and I had fun at Wicked Faire.
As for SWF jewelries, lots of ideas, especially for polymer clay. I would like to make a TON of $5 trinkets, along with larger pricier art-pieces. And those did better at Wicked Faire than I expected, so my instincts are leading me to a good place. And I like making pieces to look like themselves, rather than start with 'price to sell' and work backwards. I finally found a place to get my preferred weight of beading thread, so I may get back into the woven seed beads, not sure. I definitely have a ton of seed beads to use, but I'm out of practice with my needle work.
Also want to pick up some new display thingies, because it just barely worked out at Wicked. And if I can fit enough merch for a small event into a shoebox, and can find some kind of display that folds/collapses more effectively than what I have, I could probably hitch a ride to smaller events in Philly, Boston, cities in Connecticut, etc. for vending. Not to mention NYC events.
But first I have to check out my bins and make sure I don't already have the stuff I'm looking to order online. And ... I keep forgetting. Maybe this weekend.
Still haven't done any good photographs of new stuff. I have one more idea on how to get the lighting right. After that, I'm stuck.
I totally f'ed up all of my attempts to cut back on refined sugars again. Going on the full elimination diet was easier. On the other hand, I had fallen WAY out of my lunch-packing habits between the kitchen-fear and the con-prep. Cooked stuff this weekend, will see how that goes, and I may try de-sugaring again once that habit is established.
My friend's monthly goth/wave night was this weekend, the one I went to last month and got so dizzy I couldn't keep dancing. Opted out :-(. May email her to ask if I can set up a tarot reading thing instead of dancing at the next one, b/c I do luv the music lots. I've also been listening to a podcast called Communion After Dark to learn more about goth/wave/industrial muzaks. Is very fun.
Enchantments going nowhere. At least it feels like it, considering the main thing I'm working on is my health, and ... blah. Worst pagan evar.
Last night I really fell into a pit of angst, about my lack of energy and my life going nowhere as a result. I resisted *most* of the miserably whiny FB updates I wanted to write. I decided "Fine. I give up. No more life or projects until I feel better, F.U. body!! *angstangstangst*"
And today I feel ... better. Not 100%, but better than yesterday and last week. Like I could go to the NYRSF reading tonight without collapsing. So... srsly? I have to have to out-drama my own body to get it to work right? *sigh*
<3 Chrysilla
Crossposted from Dreamwidth, http://chrysilla.dreamwidth.org/
Wicked Faire was a lot of fun. Even though I was feeling pretty wiped out, despite surprise days off before hand, but it was easy enough to chill at my booth and let the con come to me. And the lower table price took a HUGE weight off my mind. And we had really nice neighbors, and really good traffic flow. I brought the puppet, which actually made salesmanship a lot easier for me. W00t!
It was a good reintroduction to sellin stuffs in person, and I'm looking forward to Steampunk World's Faire with my two friends' jewelry companies. We've been approved for hotel-room vending so all of my nefarious b'day plans are coming together. Yay!
Unfortunately, aside from that there were many weeks of badness for my brain. First there was the massive roach incident in January, but then a week before Wicked I had a FRIKING MOUSE in my home. On the 15th floor of a building that does not have hollow walls. Just... ARGH. The anxiety backlash of that was a lot worse than the roach, I had to stay over my friend's house overnight, it was pretty bad. And just as I was getting over the roach incident, so all of *those* feelings came back too.
The Monday before Wicked, a big water tank on the roof of my work-building broke and flooded the whole building. The library I work in is the second floor down, and is probably the only floor with extensive carpeting instead of linoleum, so we got some extra time off while people came in to repair the damage. It was still pretty wet and disheveled when we came back, and only this week things seem to be going back to normal. All of last week I had an obstacle course of extra displaced furniture between the door and my desk, that was not fun. Not to mention displaced books to look for, loud fans, and our new carpets getting pulled back up. Barely any books were damaged (about 20) so the worst part of this so far has been all our newly renovated stuff getting wrecked and thrown out. And the renovation wasn't fun for me in the first place. At least this work stress (supposedly) has a time limit?
So for the last few weeks, between the fun Wicked Faire, office stress, and the brain-cracking phobias, I've been really f'ing drained. Being at home is not relaxing when you're afraid to work in your kitchen, and looking nervously in all the dark corners every five minutes. It slowly sucked all the excitement out of upcoming SWF, ICON (oh F$%# I still need to buy my ticket), and other things. Last week I felt like I'd been thrown back into November as Little Miss Mononucleosis. Too tired to have a social life, frequent migraines, misery at my inability to do anything with my marvelous plans and schemes. I am sho frustrated, considering how much better I felt in early January, and how Wicked Faire turned out well.
No writing since before Wicked Faire. Actually, I don't think I've written anything new for the podcast project since right before the roach sighting in January. I was focusing on making more shinies for Wicked Faire on purpose, but my plans to plunge back into teh writings the week after con did not work out.
Instead of writing or getting my business stuff prepped for SWF items, I took out a sewing project. I'm not sure how it happened, but the Thursday after Wicked I just really wanted to sew somethin. I stopped looking at FMG and started reading sewing blogs again. Just, yikes, wth.
I'm still not fast at it (it took a whole weekend), but the fabric cutting went a LOT faster now that I have a rotary cutter and mat. And it was the jacket pattern again, same as the velvet jacket, but this time with corduroy as recommended. I still need to do the buttons (maybe, I may do a clasp instead) and tweak the lining, and see if pressing/steaming helps a bit, but for the most part it is a jacket, and its a bit snug but it fits. I also cut out pieces for a knit wrap dress that I just finished this weekend past. And that went really f'ing quick, so I may try to make some more knit items before Spring actually shows up. Or I may put it all back again and work on SWF, like a practical crazy person.
And instead of looking through my supplies and ordering stuff for SWF jewelry making, I looked through my sewing supplies and ordered a bunch of patterns and swatches and notions. No full pieces of fabric, tho. At least I was able to resist that much temptation.
Sure, I really needed a weekend for myself and jewelry de-tox, but I'm worried about my energy levels plummeting again after I take out the sewing. And then there's all the costume envy that perked up while I was at Wicked Faire. Argh. However, there is the fact that I was more firmly stuck on the mono-rail the last time I was sewing frequently, that may be why it was so frustrating and time consuming. I guess I'll just have to see.
Every time I see something with puppets, I wanna do something with puppets. But I have no outlet there, and no energy to go looking for something new. *grumps* At least Dusk and I had fun at Wicked Faire.
As for SWF jewelries, lots of ideas, especially for polymer clay. I would like to make a TON of $5 trinkets, along with larger pricier art-pieces. And those did better at Wicked Faire than I expected, so my instincts are leading me to a good place. And I like making pieces to look like themselves, rather than start with 'price to sell' and work backwards. I finally found a place to get my preferred weight of beading thread, so I may get back into the woven seed beads, not sure. I definitely have a ton of seed beads to use, but I'm out of practice with my needle work.
Also want to pick up some new display thingies, because it just barely worked out at Wicked. And if I can fit enough merch for a small event into a shoebox, and can find some kind of display that folds/collapses more effectively than what I have, I could probably hitch a ride to smaller events in Philly, Boston, cities in Connecticut, etc. for vending. Not to mention NYC events.
But first I have to check out my bins and make sure I don't already have the stuff I'm looking to order online. And ... I keep forgetting. Maybe this weekend.
Still haven't done any good photographs of new stuff. I have one more idea on how to get the lighting right. After that, I'm stuck.
I totally f'ed up all of my attempts to cut back on refined sugars again. Going on the full elimination diet was easier. On the other hand, I had fallen WAY out of my lunch-packing habits between the kitchen-fear and the con-prep. Cooked stuff this weekend, will see how that goes, and I may try de-sugaring again once that habit is established.
My friend's monthly goth/wave night was this weekend, the one I went to last month and got so dizzy I couldn't keep dancing. Opted out :-(. May email her to ask if I can set up a tarot reading thing instead of dancing at the next one, b/c I do luv the music lots. I've also been listening to a podcast called Communion After Dark to learn more about goth/wave/industrial muzaks. Is very fun.
Enchantments going nowhere. At least it feels like it, considering the main thing I'm working on is my health, and ... blah. Worst pagan evar.
Last night I really fell into a pit of angst, about my lack of energy and my life going nowhere as a result. I resisted *most* of the miserably whiny FB updates I wanted to write. I decided "Fine. I give up. No more life or projects until I feel better, F.U. body!! *angstangstangst*"
And today I feel ... better. Not 100%, but better than yesterday and last week. Like I could go to the NYRSF reading tonight without collapsing. So... srsly? I have to have to out-drama my own body to get it to work right? *sigh*
<3 Chrysilla
Crossposted from Dreamwidth, http://chrysilla.dreamwidth.org/