Day 5
In the last week or so a lot of things have happened that have made this year not entirely awesome so far, but hopefully good going forward. My parents got a hold of my transcript and realized that I had a few more classes I had not passed than they knew about. This caused them to decide that they will not be paying for my school anymore and that I am an alcoholic. (this is a very simplified version of this story... but just trying to get the main point here...) So, I am kind of glad that they won't be paying for my school anymore, as that means I can finish my degree for me, on my own terms. Unfortunately, this makes money tighter than I had expected and school is going to take a little longer to finish, as I won't be able to take a full class load each term. I also got a letter this week saying that my unemployment can't be paid to me, due to the fact that I have not submitted some form about my school eligibility. I haven't called yet to resolve this issue...but another piece of shit on the pile. awesome. Also, was kind of seeing someone and that seems to have come to a dead halt. so, 2011, you rock.
In oder to ease my parents mind about my apparent "alcohol addiction" I decided to take a month off of drinking. along with this, my parents have decided, once again, that I need to be seeing a counselor. I agreed to go, also to ease their minds, but I'm pretty annoyed about it since I already saw a counselor who determined I am not an alcoholic. I saw her yesterday and she was nice, so I figure it's an extra person to talk to and maybe with her help my parents and I can resolve some of the communication problems we seem to be having.
As I go through the next month I thought it would be a good idea to keep a blog about how I am feeling/what is going on in my life. Counselor talked about how people's lives may seem random, but they aren't and it is good to be aware of and see the patterns that happen in your life and behavior. So, I am going to start by choosing some specific subjects that seem to be the biggest stressors in my life and write a little about what is going with that. here goes..
Parents: I don't really want to write about this right now, actually. maybe tomorrow.
School: I am really enjoying my classes so far. Not a whole lot to say yet, as the term is just started but I like my professors. My 16th century lit class will be my favorite. My other class is severe weather, which seems like it will be severely easy. yippee. Oh, another advantage to my parents not paying for my school: I had to drop two of my classes, one of which was African lit. There was a person in that class who, after being in the class one day I already wanted to punch. He started every sentence with "I just want to disagree with that statement because..." fucking english majors.
Alcohol: the first few days of not drinking were a breeze. It still is not difficult to not drink, but the thought that it would be nice to have a drink has slipped into my brain once or twice. other than that, it is kind of nice how easy it has been not to drink. People talk about it being a social lubricant, and I am happy to know that this is, for the most part, not the case. I have just as much fun with my friends and don't have different feelings around them.
Siblings: Jenny is being very supportive. Today she gave me a "cleansing" candle as well as healing oil and the directions for how to use it to improve your life. Tomorrow I'll start the flame. Cassie is...well same as always. apparently she knows at least a little of what has been going on in the last week and has not even called to see if I'm ok. thanks, sis.
Friends: Friends are great. they have all been really supportive. A lot of them are also trying not to drink for the month. It is the new year, after all. Logan is moving out of the Raintree today though. saaaddddd.
Money: I have none. it is really fucking awful.
Guys: Haven't talked with Patrick in almost a week. Maybe i'll invite him to pub quiz tomorrow. He seems to have a bunch of shit going on though. And so do I, which makes me not really want to think about or deal with guys at all.
Work: Looking. no success yet. monday I need to get into super looking for work mode though.
In oder to ease my parents mind about my apparent "alcohol addiction" I decided to take a month off of drinking. along with this, my parents have decided, once again, that I need to be seeing a counselor. I agreed to go, also to ease their minds, but I'm pretty annoyed about it since I already saw a counselor who determined I am not an alcoholic. I saw her yesterday and she was nice, so I figure it's an extra person to talk to and maybe with her help my parents and I can resolve some of the communication problems we seem to be having.
As I go through the next month I thought it would be a good idea to keep a blog about how I am feeling/what is going on in my life. Counselor talked about how people's lives may seem random, but they aren't and it is good to be aware of and see the patterns that happen in your life and behavior. So, I am going to start by choosing some specific subjects that seem to be the biggest stressors in my life and write a little about what is going with that. here goes..
Parents: I don't really want to write about this right now, actually. maybe tomorrow.
School: I am really enjoying my classes so far. Not a whole lot to say yet, as the term is just started but I like my professors. My 16th century lit class will be my favorite. My other class is severe weather, which seems like it will be severely easy. yippee. Oh, another advantage to my parents not paying for my school: I had to drop two of my classes, one of which was African lit. There was a person in that class who, after being in the class one day I already wanted to punch. He started every sentence with "I just want to disagree with that statement because..." fucking english majors.
Alcohol: the first few days of not drinking were a breeze. It still is not difficult to not drink, but the thought that it would be nice to have a drink has slipped into my brain once or twice. other than that, it is kind of nice how easy it has been not to drink. People talk about it being a social lubricant, and I am happy to know that this is, for the most part, not the case. I have just as much fun with my friends and don't have different feelings around them.
Siblings: Jenny is being very supportive. Today she gave me a "cleansing" candle as well as healing oil and the directions for how to use it to improve your life. Tomorrow I'll start the flame. Cassie is...well same as always. apparently she knows at least a little of what has been going on in the last week and has not even called to see if I'm ok. thanks, sis.
Friends: Friends are great. they have all been really supportive. A lot of them are also trying not to drink for the month. It is the new year, after all. Logan is moving out of the Raintree today though. saaaddddd.
Money: I have none. it is really fucking awful.
Guys: Haven't talked with Patrick in almost a week. Maybe i'll invite him to pub quiz tomorrow. He seems to have a bunch of shit going on though. And so do I, which makes me not really want to think about or deal with guys at all.
Work: Looking. no success yet. monday I need to get into super looking for work mode though.