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sometimes i just feel like asking, "but are you really happy, you sack-of-shit assholes?"
i don't even know how to answer this. My parents ask my if I'm feeling happier. Well, i guess. but I never felt that UNhappy. at least not in an abnormal, drawn out, over-all perspective sort of way. But am I happy? I don't feel like i can say yes to that. I can say I have a lot of things I love. (my apartment, my friends, my family, my kitties) but then again, there are a lot of things I don't have contentment with (some of my friends, some of my family, men in general, work, school, etc.) yeah, that list, i think, goes on and on. So i try to stay focused on the things I do love, and that seems to get my through well enough.
But really, I just want to finish school and get the fuck out of here. I can't even stop daydreaming about going away, even on weekend trips. but alas, i have no money, no means for this.
I need to finish school. I need to get a job.
i don't even know how to answer this. My parents ask my if I'm feeling happier. Well, i guess. but I never felt that UNhappy. at least not in an abnormal, drawn out, over-all perspective sort of way. But am I happy? I don't feel like i can say yes to that. I can say I have a lot of things I love. (my apartment, my friends, my family, my kitties) but then again, there are a lot of things I don't have contentment with (some of my friends, some of my family, men in general, work, school, etc.) yeah, that list, i think, goes on and on. So i try to stay focused on the things I do love, and that seems to get my through well enough.
But really, I just want to finish school and get the fuck out of here. I can't even stop daydreaming about going away, even on weekend trips. but alas, i have no money, no means for this.
I need to finish school. I need to get a job.