Simply fuck
Its really ironic how yesterday I had a great day and today basically sucked, i just read amanda's journal and its totally vise versa for her. Today didnt start out bad, except for the fact that my limbs just wouldnt work me out of bed. I swear that moment after your alarm clock goes off and you just chill for a couple of minuets stretching in bed is almost orgasmic. "I should go but it feels so good to just pretend the world doesnt exist and sleep."
Anyway school was fine but after school... Uggh. I went to acting class as usual, our play is this week, knowng that i would have to leave at 5. So i do right on schedule and i race over to Alexander Valley school to pick up my brother and sister from their sixth grade field trip. Nobody is there, the school is deserted, I could fucking scream. Actually once i got in the car i did scream, so much my whole body was shaking. And then i started sobbing just the whole weight of finals, taking care of things while my mom is gone, not enough sleep, my play blah blah blah all came down upon my head. So i call my dad and kinda freak but i guess he cant tell because he is really cheerful and is calm and even cracking jokes. Finally i realize they are at their friend's house and i get there and everyone is like whats the big deal? they had just gotten there. In fact they had never intended to go to the school first. And they didnt even bother to call.
I get erik and katrina into the car with as much dignity as I can muster. And then, (i feel so bad about this now,) i scream again like a maniac. My brother and sister were like,"whoah what did we do?" I felt terrible but it was so frustrating. I get back to the imagination foundation and brent is kinda pissed i had to go. I tell amy why i am late and almost start crying and immedietly i have to go on for my scene. You wanna see acting? Keeping myself together for that scene was acting. Geez. But its all over now, and it all seems so trivial now that i am spilling in my live journal. Oh well this its what its for right? To make us glory in our happy days and realize that things arent so bad on our terrible ones. I am over it. Night folks.
Anyway school was fine but after school... Uggh. I went to acting class as usual, our play is this week, knowng that i would have to leave at 5. So i do right on schedule and i race over to Alexander Valley school to pick up my brother and sister from their sixth grade field trip. Nobody is there, the school is deserted, I could fucking scream. Actually once i got in the car i did scream, so much my whole body was shaking. And then i started sobbing just the whole weight of finals, taking care of things while my mom is gone, not enough sleep, my play blah blah blah all came down upon my head. So i call my dad and kinda freak but i guess he cant tell because he is really cheerful and is calm and even cracking jokes. Finally i realize they are at their friend's house and i get there and everyone is like whats the big deal? they had just gotten there. In fact they had never intended to go to the school first. And they didnt even bother to call.
I get erik and katrina into the car with as much dignity as I can muster. And then, (i feel so bad about this now,) i scream again like a maniac. My brother and sister were like,"whoah what did we do?" I felt terrible but it was so frustrating. I get back to the imagination foundation and brent is kinda pissed i had to go. I tell amy why i am late and almost start crying and immedietly i have to go on for my scene. You wanna see acting? Keeping myself together for that scene was acting. Geez. But its all over now, and it all seems so trivial now that i am spilling in my live journal. Oh well this its what its for right? To make us glory in our happy days and realize that things arent so bad on our terrible ones. I am over it. Night folks.