Oct 12, 2005 16:46
One time in the 5th grade I tried to but I could not, it was also not my time yet. Grandma made food though she fasted and gave it to me. I loved her for that. I am worried about Alessia and I am here with Michelle, it is very bad. Atleast Yom Kipur started and thus I am released from all bodly plasure. It will give me time to clean off from the states and come back to Israel fresh...
Elona and Alessia were so sweet and they wired me some money to Western Union bank, I am kind of broke and I will use it as emergency cash. That is so cool of them. They want me to spend it on having fun but I will not, it is Yom Kipur... but it is such good insurance.
Soon, Israel, the arms of loved one, friends, aless, mom, dad, Ronen, Ido... Marina...Elad, Itamar, Amit... and more.. I can not wait.
God, I used to stop trying to fast becasue I was angry at you, I was also growing up so I did not know any better. I was very angry when people would hurt me, laugh, will give the looks. I was angry when you tool my eldery away from me... I was angry when I could not find love or that i would be out in the street walking alone because I was just kicked out of the house due to not cleaning the room the way mom likes it. I am not angry any more, all of that is in the past, I have been fasting for the past 5 years becasue i have stoped being angry at you... I appologise if I have done something that was out of place and I hope that I will have the wisdom not to do so in the future. I beg of you keep an eye on the people I love... keeo a watchfull eye. They are good people in heart no matter where are they in the world.
Thank you
Doron.