Sorry, I haven't been in a writing mood.......
But now I shall write some things. Every now and then I decide to get online to see what you guys have said. I also talk to you all as much as I can on the phone. I want you all to know that I miss you more than I could ever describe. I mean look at this journal. I really never intend for anyone, but our circle(or maybe dodecahedron) of friends to read it. I usually say you guys, full and well knowing that you all are very well aware of who you are. And since no one but you guys ever comments then I know you are the only ones that actually do read it. Gina, Nick, J, Autumn, Kevin, Genn, D, Kara, and Karen. You guys are the "you guys" I am talking about. And if someone that does read it isn't on this list it is because you never comment on my journal. BAD MONKEY.
I see the tension that occurs every now and then and I get sad. I would like to think that if I was there I would be able to do something to fix some of it. I don't know, maybe I would do something stupid or say something obscure during a tense moment and it would help ease things. Maybe I could give some Alchaun type advice if I thought someone needed it. I just wish I could help all of you. If it wasn't for the fact that I had Gina and all my friends.......no......all of my FAMILY back there, I wouldn't have a reason to want to come home. I have never really felt like anywhere has ever been my home. I have never thought to myself "This is where I call home, this is where I can say I am from" I just can't seem to connect a place to a feeling of belonging. Instead I have the people in my life. I have the people who have seen me at my best and at my worst. I have people that I could count on. Even if I am too thick headed to ask for help sometimes, I still know that my FAMILY will be there if I ever do need help.
I have married into a wonderful family, and I have picked friends that are better people than even they realize. My home is with all of you. My house exists in your hearts. Now I know that this may be one of the CHEESEiest things I have said to all of you, but it is still the truth, so you can mock me for my emotions (D) , and you can think that I am being sappy (not from a tree) , but I don't care.
Don't be upset with each other over one day of work or one bad relationship or anything else that may come up. Or else I will have to play the father role of this "family" and punish you all. I hope to see you all as soon as I can, and since I will most likely be here over the Christmas season, if you all want to come see me that would be super. But when I do come back, I will be coming home.
I see the tension that occurs every now and then and I get sad. I would like to think that if I was there I would be able to do something to fix some of it. I don't know, maybe I would do something stupid or say something obscure during a tense moment and it would help ease things. Maybe I could give some Alchaun type advice if I thought someone needed it. I just wish I could help all of you. If it wasn't for the fact that I had Gina and all my friends.......no......all of my FAMILY back there, I wouldn't have a reason to want to come home. I have never really felt like anywhere has ever been my home. I have never thought to myself "This is where I call home, this is where I can say I am from" I just can't seem to connect a place to a feeling of belonging. Instead I have the people in my life. I have the people who have seen me at my best and at my worst. I have people that I could count on. Even if I am too thick headed to ask for help sometimes, I still know that my FAMILY will be there if I ever do need help.
I have married into a wonderful family, and I have picked friends that are better people than even they realize. My home is with all of you. My house exists in your hearts. Now I know that this may be one of the CHEESEiest things I have said to all of you, but it is still the truth, so you can mock me for my emotions (D) , and you can think that I am being sappy (not from a tree) , but I don't care.
Don't be upset with each other over one day of work or one bad relationship or anything else that may come up. Or else I will have to play the father role of this "family" and punish you all. I hope to see you all as soon as I can, and since I will most likely be here over the Christmas season, if you all want to come see me that would be super. But when I do come back, I will be coming home.