Day 61
I feel good. I think I feel good. I want to think I feel good.
As was expressed earlier, my life changed dramatically and suffered from the consequences of those I thought were close to me. I felt like I was trying my hardest to keep things together, but from the vantage point I am offered this can not be accomplished. I guess I should not have expected her to wait for me through my journey. It wasn't that far away but apparently too far for some.
All I am left with are the memories of good times had, time spent together, trips made, and tears lost. By far, this has been the craziest ride of my life. Will I regret having committed so much of my time to her in the future? I wish I could know. I feel deep inside like this is all the result of something I did. Would things have been different had I not gotten caught for the crime I committed? Would it have happened sooner?
Regardless, I can not blame anyone but them. She wants me to take her back. She tells me she loves me. She acts exactley like I've always wanted her to act for months. Only now she is in trouble. She hit the nerve. She knew the consequences. She tells me she will not stop until I'm her teddy bear and she's my babygirl, once again. I don't know what will come of this.
As was expressed earlier, my life changed dramatically and suffered from the consequences of those I thought were close to me. I felt like I was trying my hardest to keep things together, but from the vantage point I am offered this can not be accomplished. I guess I should not have expected her to wait for me through my journey. It wasn't that far away but apparently too far for some.
All I am left with are the memories of good times had, time spent together, trips made, and tears lost. By far, this has been the craziest ride of my life. Will I regret having committed so much of my time to her in the future? I wish I could know. I feel deep inside like this is all the result of something I did. Would things have been different had I not gotten caught for the crime I committed? Would it have happened sooner?
Regardless, I can not blame anyone but them. She wants me to take her back. She tells me she loves me. She acts exactley like I've always wanted her to act for months. Only now she is in trouble. She hit the nerve. She knew the consequences. She tells me she will not stop until I'm her teddy bear and she's my babygirl, once again. I don't know what will come of this.