An envy of talents
People state a lot that hard work and practice can make up and even surpass natural talent. That is bullshit. In terms of skill, there are caps. Yes, someone that works hard will accomplish someone that is talented but doesn't work at all, but someone that is untalented will never surpass someone that is talented and works equally as hard.
I don't say this to discourage myself nor to discourage others, but it's the truth. I played fighting games my entire life, and while I have a natural talent for games in general, I know I am not talented enough to be a top fighting game player. Especially now. My reactions, my execution, they've all dropped significantly since I was younger. I understand games and mechanics better than most people(hardwork and analysis) but I cannot perform well.
I'm not envious of fighting game players though. The talent I'm most envious of is music and arts. Singers and dancers specifically are the people I truly envy in this world, because more than anything I wish I was good at these two things. I sing a lot, and I try to improve, but I have a horrible range, a horrible consistency, and I just am no good at it. It doesn't stop me at all, but I wish I was good at it. This was partially the reason I loved doing the cafe so much. It allowed me to harness and use my capabilities to help others improve and showcase what I couldn't. I liked playing producer(and I'm kinda good at it). Helping Tiffany especially, someone who is incredibly talent in both singing and dance, get better was so fulfilling to me. I can easily recognize mistakes, what's lacking, and focus. I got to play a part in the thing I find most beautiful in the world. I like seeing these talents be recognized and grow.
Rai Kamishiro for example. She is an amazing amazing singer, song writer etc. She has an amazing personality as well. I often call her the most talented person I know, and I honestly mean that. What she lacks though is her own confidence and the openness to accept that, she's that fucking talented and to stop caring about what negative things people say. But that's probably the most common thing holding people back.
Both Rai and Tiffany push forward with their talents. Rai does it passionately. Tiffany... seems to slowly be losing her passion. It makes me sad.
Being able to be a part of this aspect of life is incredibly important to me, and now that i've lost it, it feels like i don't have a channel to really immerse myself in anymore. When I went to norcal, we went karaoke. I practiced a lot on a few songs, and even though I sang horribly, it meant so much to me. But in the end, it was just that, horrible. The sense of accomplishment wasnt there, because nothing became accomplished.
One of my proudest moments, even though I wasn't there, was when Tiffany won Jpop summit's dance competition a year and a half ago. All the hardwork and nights spent analyzing and helping her improve bit by bit paid off. She got to live a dream that day, meeting, dancing with, and being praised by people she looks up to as idols. To be told "You performed it better than us" was amazing.
Since a while ago, I stopped playing fighting games. Besides real life, my skills have just been dropping more and more. To where I just get frustrated playing now because I know I used to be so much better. I... want to help people in the arts build their talents. I like helping people showcase their talents, whatever they may be, but that was what I loved doing the most. I wonder...
I don't say this to discourage myself nor to discourage others, but it's the truth. I played fighting games my entire life, and while I have a natural talent for games in general, I know I am not talented enough to be a top fighting game player. Especially now. My reactions, my execution, they've all dropped significantly since I was younger. I understand games and mechanics better than most people(hardwork and analysis) but I cannot perform well.
I'm not envious of fighting game players though. The talent I'm most envious of is music and arts. Singers and dancers specifically are the people I truly envy in this world, because more than anything I wish I was good at these two things. I sing a lot, and I try to improve, but I have a horrible range, a horrible consistency, and I just am no good at it. It doesn't stop me at all, but I wish I was good at it. This was partially the reason I loved doing the cafe so much. It allowed me to harness and use my capabilities to help others improve and showcase what I couldn't. I liked playing producer(and I'm kinda good at it). Helping Tiffany especially, someone who is incredibly talent in both singing and dance, get better was so fulfilling to me. I can easily recognize mistakes, what's lacking, and focus. I got to play a part in the thing I find most beautiful in the world. I like seeing these talents be recognized and grow.
Rai Kamishiro for example. She is an amazing amazing singer, song writer etc. She has an amazing personality as well. I often call her the most talented person I know, and I honestly mean that. What she lacks though is her own confidence and the openness to accept that, she's that fucking talented and to stop caring about what negative things people say. But that's probably the most common thing holding people back.
Both Rai and Tiffany push forward with their talents. Rai does it passionately. Tiffany... seems to slowly be losing her passion. It makes me sad.
Being able to be a part of this aspect of life is incredibly important to me, and now that i've lost it, it feels like i don't have a channel to really immerse myself in anymore. When I went to norcal, we went karaoke. I practiced a lot on a few songs, and even though I sang horribly, it meant so much to me. But in the end, it was just that, horrible. The sense of accomplishment wasnt there, because nothing became accomplished.
One of my proudest moments, even though I wasn't there, was when Tiffany won Jpop summit's dance competition a year and a half ago. All the hardwork and nights spent analyzing and helping her improve bit by bit paid off. She got to live a dream that day, meeting, dancing with, and being praised by people she looks up to as idols. To be told "You performed it better than us" was amazing.
Since a while ago, I stopped playing fighting games. Besides real life, my skills have just been dropping more and more. To where I just get frustrated playing now because I know I used to be so much better. I... want to help people in the arts build their talents. I like helping people showcase their talents, whatever they may be, but that was what I loved doing the most. I wonder...