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[pyromanic2001]

Well, the moment of truth has come and gone, and I have a job. I would love to be excited, but at the moment, I am somewhat grim. First, I'd be working almost exclusively second shift, which means I will never see anybody. Second, this is going to be a very difficult job. I am confident in my ability to adapt to this new situation, but it will at least be a constant test of my will and at worst an excersise to see how quickly I can burn out. Third, although this job is full-time with benefits, the pay is utter shit. Although I feel confident that I can earn a raise or promotion at this job, the question stands...just how long will I be able to handle it? Will I be able to handle it at all????

I am also worried as hell about graduation. I'm scared to death that I've missed some monday detail that will screw this whole thing up. Though I doubt that will be the case, it is still something that keeps me at a state of perpetual worry.

All my papers are done! I can finally rest, though I have found relatively little comfort in the current situation, at least I am not a ball of stress ready to explode. I really have been one, I've treated some of my friends pretty poorly over the last few weeks. Though I'm sure they understand the stress I've been under, I've not been the greatest friend. To those of you who I've more or less ignored for the last two weeks, I'm sorry.