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I have been so happy lately. Well ever since Saturday at my bosses bonfire. It was so much fun. I got to burn my "mind wiesel." Yeah that sounds weird so let me explain. My boss made these little wiesel like animals out of fun-furr and left an opening in them so that you could write down whatever was bothering you on a piece of paper, put it in the wiesel, and throw it into the fire. Thus the name "mind wiesel." Yeah I know it sounds weird but hey if it works, why not? So I wrote down the one thing that was bothering me, well his name: PATRICK, on a napkin and placed it inside the wiesel. Next, into the fire it went. Ever since then I have felt like this weight was lifted off of my shoulders and have been extremely happy.
I miss him but I'm still happy. Before I would have cried thinking about it, but now if I think about it, I'm sad but enlightened at the same time.
However, after today I don't know if it will still be as easy. I have to go down to Costco today and see mom; Patrick works today until about 8, so he will probably be there when I stop by. I haven't seen him in two-weeks, or even talked to him so I'm not sure of the way I'm gonna feel. Sadly I fear it will go back to the way it was. I don't think he even realizes that anything is wrong, and if I let it take any kind of affect on me, Brandon will kick my ass. Seriously! I guess I just have to wait and see.
Tony and I went up to Covenant Hills to see Dani on Wed. Yea, BAND CAMP! Boy am I glad that I am done with that. I felt so bad because she was so depressed when we left, but at least we got to spend some time with her and take her mind off of it all. We took up pizza and my dvd player. We watched "Pirates of the Caribbean" with her and like ten other people. It was fun. Well except me having to tell the whole story of Patrick and I to Elaine. She wanted to know if anything ended up happening with the 'really cute guy' from my open-house.
This guy just came in with some food and it smelt really good, so I think I am gonna go. I'm gonna figure out what I want and order something. I love delivery.
~Joey~
I miss him but I'm still happy. Before I would have cried thinking about it, but now if I think about it, I'm sad but enlightened at the same time.
However, after today I don't know if it will still be as easy. I have to go down to Costco today and see mom; Patrick works today until about 8, so he will probably be there when I stop by. I haven't seen him in two-weeks, or even talked to him so I'm not sure of the way I'm gonna feel. Sadly I fear it will go back to the way it was. I don't think he even realizes that anything is wrong, and if I let it take any kind of affect on me, Brandon will kick my ass. Seriously! I guess I just have to wait and see.
Tony and I went up to Covenant Hills to see Dani on Wed. Yea, BAND CAMP! Boy am I glad that I am done with that. I felt so bad because she was so depressed when we left, but at least we got to spend some time with her and take her mind off of it all. We took up pizza and my dvd player. We watched "Pirates of the Caribbean" with her and like ten other people. It was fun. Well except me having to tell the whole story of Patrick and I to Elaine. She wanted to know if anything ended up happening with the 'really cute guy' from my open-house.
This guy just came in with some food and it smelt really good, so I think I am gonna go. I'm gonna figure out what I want and order something. I love delivery.
~Joey~