Old Obsessions
So, I have recently discovered about myself I tend to get obsessive about some things. You know, books, movies, etc. Problem is, it's never things anybody cares about but me. And once I've become obsessed, I can walk away from everything, just drop it cold turkey, and not think about it at all, until something jogs my memory. Then the whole obsession comes flying back.
The major culprit (and anybody who really knows me already knows what I'm talking about) is the Titanic. I've had this thing about it since, like 5th grade (yeah, when the movie came out) When everybody and their sister went nuts for Leo and the movie and stuff, I went bonkers for the real thing, the real stories (plus Leo and the movie, LOL) I've got books, newspapers, movies, expedition notes, trivia, puzzles, toys, all sorts of crap that for most of the year I can just stuff away and not think about. But every year, in the back of my brain something tickles on April 14th. I know without even having to consciously think about it that it is the anniversary of the sinking, and something in me wants to dig up everything. Every year I try to resist the urge to watch the movie, because I know the slippery slope I'm inching toward, and every year I lose the battle.
It always starts with the movie, because well, it always has. I love that movie. It's in my top 5 favorite movies of all time, and I'm one of the few people in the world who will tell you that without blushing (statistically, it's in the top 10 for 75% of the world's population, they're just to embarrassed to admit it) and yeah, it's a cheesy movie, with mushy lines. But it's also STILL the top grossing film of all time (you saw it in theaters at least once, you know you did) and it's still one of the best and most accurately detailed historical films ever made. The attention to detail is amazing, even with all of the little side stories it works in. I could gush about the movie for a really long time. I'll spare you for now.
But for me, it doesn't just end there. Once I've seen the movie once, it practically goes on repeat. I can't stop watching the movie, I just watch it over and over. And any time I'm not watching the movie, I'm reading the books, or researching online, or playing the board game or the computer game. It's pretty frickin' ridiculous now that I see it all written out, but I just can't stop. I have at least passed the need to buy more stuff, so it's not like every year I throw down wads of cash on things I will only pull out once a year, but it does get very time consuming, and I do lose a lot of sleep. I also neglect other life things, like homework.
To top it off, I don't really mind my obsession. It's something that's mine, that nobody else really understands. Hell, I'm not even sure I really understand it. I can't explain what the stories do to me, or why I need to know every little bit of trivia. I guess that's why it's called an obsession...
The major culprit (and anybody who really knows me already knows what I'm talking about) is the Titanic. I've had this thing about it since, like 5th grade (yeah, when the movie came out) When everybody and their sister went nuts for Leo and the movie and stuff, I went bonkers for the real thing, the real stories (plus Leo and the movie, LOL) I've got books, newspapers, movies, expedition notes, trivia, puzzles, toys, all sorts of crap that for most of the year I can just stuff away and not think about. But every year, in the back of my brain something tickles on April 14th. I know without even having to consciously think about it that it is the anniversary of the sinking, and something in me wants to dig up everything. Every year I try to resist the urge to watch the movie, because I know the slippery slope I'm inching toward, and every year I lose the battle.
It always starts with the movie, because well, it always has. I love that movie. It's in my top 5 favorite movies of all time, and I'm one of the few people in the world who will tell you that without blushing (statistically, it's in the top 10 for 75% of the world's population, they're just to embarrassed to admit it) and yeah, it's a cheesy movie, with mushy lines. But it's also STILL the top grossing film of all time (you saw it in theaters at least once, you know you did) and it's still one of the best and most accurately detailed historical films ever made. The attention to detail is amazing, even with all of the little side stories it works in. I could gush about the movie for a really long time. I'll spare you for now.
But for me, it doesn't just end there. Once I've seen the movie once, it practically goes on repeat. I can't stop watching the movie, I just watch it over and over. And any time I'm not watching the movie, I'm reading the books, or researching online, or playing the board game or the computer game. It's pretty frickin' ridiculous now that I see it all written out, but I just can't stop. I have at least passed the need to buy more stuff, so it's not like every year I throw down wads of cash on things I will only pull out once a year, but it does get very time consuming, and I do lose a lot of sleep. I also neglect other life things, like homework.
To top it off, I don't really mind my obsession. It's something that's mine, that nobody else really understands. Hell, I'm not even sure I really understand it. I can't explain what the stories do to me, or why I need to know every little bit of trivia. I guess that's why it's called an obsession...