Apparently I'm really good at not only sticking my foot in my mouth, but down my friggin throat!!!
Kinda upset Ryan, cuz we have barely talked today, the time we were on the phone longest we hardly said a word, but every other time we were trying to cram words in...go figure. We;ve talked ish in texts, but thats just not the same. Then he had to go cuz he got stuck with the first sleep schedule tonight since he has to work (he gets to gaurd the school house!! lol, woot...not!), and he wakes up at like 2:45 or some shit like that...so I won't get to talk to him until 3 in the morning...I can do it (stay awake that long), just have to keep busy so it's not like I've been sitting around doing NOTHING for 3 hours...Right now I'm taking a break from cleaning...washed the dishes, I've probably done 4 loads of laundry...started cleaning my room and getting stuff ready to change around the ferret cage...OH!!! As for the headline (kind of side tracked from what this was originally about, go figure) and the upsetting RYan thing, we were getting off the phone since he had to go sleep, and I was trying to pay attention to a couple different things, and I accidently said "Bye" before telling him I loved him, then to make up for it kinda rushed my (and fucked up, this is kinda what I said) "Oh, I love you."...yeah, didn't really sit well with him. Got a nice text saying "don't need to say it like you mean it" or some shit like that...BUT I tried correcting myself while on the phone!!! He cut me off and said bye before I could!! Oh well...we texted back and forth and I said sorry like, fifty thousand times, also told him not to let me buy anymore pants, and everythings ok now. *sigh of relief* I really don't want to fuck this up, especially if we're getting married next month! It's going to be one of those not fancy quick and easy courthouse marriages for now...should be fun!! lol. SO I can move down there and we can get a place to live and everything like that, which will be great!! I get to spend the rest of my life with the man I've completely fallen head of heels for!! Weird thing is, there are actually benefits to us getting married, as well. He'll get more money from the government (since he works for them, lol), and I'll get health insurance and life insurance, and also get all the luxories (how the fuck do you spell that?!) of a MILITARY ID!!!! haha, DUnno why I'm excited for that, but it's kewl to me. Anyway, I'm done rambling and filling up peoples friends pages, lol. I've got to get back to...dun dun dun...CLEANING!!! Actually, might eat something, then go back...hmm...that sounds better...lol. BYE!!!!!!!!!! haha!!