Marriage!!!!
Heh, kidding. Not yet, but soon. Movin down to Cali!!!! It's gonna be hard, but I'm totally willing. I've got a loevly growing list of shit that's happening to me in this town, and I'm leaving. Leaving all of this behind, for a few months. Ryan and I are completely miserable without each other. I've been crying off and on for the past 3 days now, since he left. I've never felt so alone in my life. My mom had a small stroke, my car's dead, I got turned in to collections by sprint, my friend had something horrible happen to her, another friend (older, more like a mother figure) is in a coma, Nick's the biggest fucking piece of shit I've ever known. It's no longer an "I want out" it's turned into a "I have to get out of here." So Ryan and I decided that I could move down there, and we could get married, then we can get on base housing for free, and I could get a job and all that down there, and start a new life for a while, get on my feet finally, and we'd live down there on base until sept. when he gets released from the military and we'd move back up here to B'ham. The only thing I want in life right now if just to be with him. Yes, doing this marriage thing will help us out as well, cuz he'll get paid more, and if I get a job too, we'll both be able to get out of debt, also my mom will have one less mouth to feed, along with my grandpa not having me call him every night to ask for money for food or gas or whatever. There are all these benefits to it, but the number one is that I get to be with Ryan. All signs point to "yes" on this one...all roads lead to this option...and I'm more than willing to do it. I can' honestly say that even with all the perks of us getting married, they could vanish and I wouldn't care...I just want to be with him...so why not, right?? hmm...I'm gonna get going, try to see if myspace won't be so gay anymore...maybe write Ryan a message or something, lol.