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horrible day yesterday. shitty parents. shitty band practice. but we tried making the best of it.
thanks to emily for having a good conversation. it was rejuvenating and vindicating cuz for a long time me and amelia thought that we were the only ones who felt how we do about southbury. i think that because every chance she gets barb makes us feel like shit for not being home, and miserable and boring.
barb likes to conduct these 'family meetings.' first off, my sister made a good point; just because barb is married to my dad, does not make her family. besides, amelia doesn't feel like she's a part of our family (technically she isn't... yet; either way), and these family meetings are just a way for barb and my dad to judge us. we're refusing to talk because we know how it's gonna end up; us going around in circles, them pushing their dumb AA logic on me, us changing our habits but them continuing to be the same stubborn assholes they have been for months now. i might just throw in the towel and be like we just don't agree on anything.... anymore.
me and amelia talked about moving out last night. but we gotta make more $$$ in order for that to happen.
thanks to emily for having a good conversation. it was rejuvenating and vindicating cuz for a long time me and amelia thought that we were the only ones who felt how we do about southbury. i think that because every chance she gets barb makes us feel like shit for not being home, and miserable and boring.
barb likes to conduct these 'family meetings.' first off, my sister made a good point; just because barb is married to my dad, does not make her family. besides, amelia doesn't feel like she's a part of our family (technically she isn't... yet; either way), and these family meetings are just a way for barb and my dad to judge us. we're refusing to talk because we know how it's gonna end up; us going around in circles, them pushing their dumb AA logic on me, us changing our habits but them continuing to be the same stubborn assholes they have been for months now. i might just throw in the towel and be like we just don't agree on anything.... anymore.
me and amelia talked about moving out last night. but we gotta make more $$$ in order for that to happen.