Anxious.
I am just feeling very anxious now. I am doing random and redundant things. Although it is technically 9am now, I don't think I should call International Equities yet. I'll probably wait for another 15 mins to half and hour just to allow some settling down of the housing agents.
I really want that house! Pretty please.
Sometimes when you want something very badly, you just cannot wait for the time to come to know whether you can get it or not. Sometimes you get pleasantly surprised, sometimes you get rudely shocked and other times, you just have to wait a little longer. For now, I am just waiting a little longer because I know that God has a way and he will decide what is best for me. I know I can relax a little but I guess years of waiting for things that I want very badly has made me this way. Unable to sleep, pumped up with adrenaline.
I think I should go and buy a bible when I am feeling more settled. I need to read the words of God to nourish me. At least there is wisdom in his words that undisputably, is good for our soul.
I know it may seem strange that I am such a reformed Christian (if that is the right term) but I guess when a person has seen signs and the works of God, there is no ignoring the fact that there has to be something done. I have done something. I am taking my first few steps in acknowleding Him back into my life again. For that, I am glad.
Perhaps typing here gives me some sort of calm. It's too early in the morning to be talking my anxiousness away, so I guess this will do. I am glad for technology sometimes. Most of the times, I am just baffled. Which probably explains my lack of understanding for Physics. Those glorious days of Physics. I loathe.
Many a times when you feel like you are going to falter, just pray. I have found that to be very effective. It quietens you down and it stills your heart. For those who are non-believers, it is a good way to stop and think as well if you look into the logic of it. For me, I just try to talk to Him and know that He is there, guiding me in my steps, preventing me from falling.
I should call in another 5 mins or so. I am just waiting for a sign. Perhaps the courage to call. I know that I should be proactive in such things but there is something to be said about being too enthusiastic as well. Give it 5 more mins I guess. There is no harm waiting for a little longer when I've already waited for a few days.
Alright then, call.
I really want that house! Pretty please.
Sometimes when you want something very badly, you just cannot wait for the time to come to know whether you can get it or not. Sometimes you get pleasantly surprised, sometimes you get rudely shocked and other times, you just have to wait a little longer. For now, I am just waiting a little longer because I know that God has a way and he will decide what is best for me. I know I can relax a little but I guess years of waiting for things that I want very badly has made me this way. Unable to sleep, pumped up with adrenaline.
I think I should go and buy a bible when I am feeling more settled. I need to read the words of God to nourish me. At least there is wisdom in his words that undisputably, is good for our soul.
I know it may seem strange that I am such a reformed Christian (if that is the right term) but I guess when a person has seen signs and the works of God, there is no ignoring the fact that there has to be something done. I have done something. I am taking my first few steps in acknowleding Him back into my life again. For that, I am glad.
Perhaps typing here gives me some sort of calm. It's too early in the morning to be talking my anxiousness away, so I guess this will do. I am glad for technology sometimes. Most of the times, I am just baffled. Which probably explains my lack of understanding for Physics. Those glorious days of Physics. I loathe.
Many a times when you feel like you are going to falter, just pray. I have found that to be very effective. It quietens you down and it stills your heart. For those who are non-believers, it is a good way to stop and think as well if you look into the logic of it. For me, I just try to talk to Him and know that He is there, guiding me in my steps, preventing me from falling.
I should call in another 5 mins or so. I am just waiting for a sign. Perhaps the courage to call. I know that I should be proactive in such things but there is something to be said about being too enthusiastic as well. Give it 5 more mins I guess. There is no harm waiting for a little longer when I've already waited for a few days.
Alright then, call.