Here's to the end of me...

[pushed_again]

I spent the night just dying on the inside. Any of you have any clue what it feels like to give it your all and fail miserably? I do and it sucks is such an understatement.

I'm waiting for something to happen...and it may never happen...Guess I'm screwed then, eh?

I give everything I am to take away your pain.
I take it all within and let it sit inside.
I hold on as long as I can for you.
I never let go for fear of what may happen.
I need something to help balance out the pain.

The sound of you voice soothes my being.
The feel of your skin heals my wounds.
The warmth of you love brings me to euphoria.
The thoughts you share brighten my day.
The care you have for me is all I have.

And then I throw it all away.
And I can't remember why I did.
And the pain comes back to me.
And I drown myself by missing you.
And I can't get up without you back.

Take my hand and pull me up.
Take me with you and help me go.
Take the demons or help me fight them.
Take everything I ever was.
Take my eternal love and keep it near.

I can't give anything more. And I'm still drowning right now. I miss you right now. I've never missed anyone like I miss you. I've never felt for anyone how I feel for you.

Annie...I LOVE YOU.

As you drove off I screamed it at the top of my lungs...Then I feel to my knees...

I'm sorry, Annie...

I had thought I was best at being your boyfriend but I was wrong once more, and you suffered for my mistake...