listen closer to Hotel California - if played in psychiatric hospitals - is that connection made..??
this is not going to a riveting entry.
infact it revolves around questioning questions as to why things ARENT riveting.
i'm enjoying less and less every fucking day.
but i'm pursuing more on that very same daily basis.
maybe i'm lacking in desired results because in my daily pursual to find something exciting, something that will release me the way that i used to feel release, a release that i see now as having been manipulated (probably blatantly looking at this release as needing to be savour, comes that weird take on it....AM I BLURTING OUT THE ANSWERS TO MY QUETSIONS AS I WRITE ABOUT THEM????) - i may very well be 'upping' my expectations of desired outsome at the same rate.
so my perhaps uneducated 'obvious' answer seems to be to cease all efforts and force them into retreat.
and there are probably brutal fatalities to follow.
but i just need to be numbed.
someone was lining out cocaine on a marble slab in front of me.
It just suddenly all felt really old.
not bad. not negative. not sad - just old.
infact it revolves around questioning questions as to why things ARENT riveting.
i'm enjoying less and less every fucking day.
but i'm pursuing more on that very same daily basis.
maybe i'm lacking in desired results because in my daily pursual to find something exciting, something that will release me the way that i used to feel release, a release that i see now as having been manipulated (probably blatantly looking at this release as needing to be savour, comes that weird take on it....AM I BLURTING OUT THE ANSWERS TO MY QUETSIONS AS I WRITE ABOUT THEM????) - i may very well be 'upping' my expectations of desired outsome at the same rate.
so my perhaps uneducated 'obvious' answer seems to be to cease all efforts and force them into retreat.
and there are probably brutal fatalities to follow.
but i just need to be numbed.
someone was lining out cocaine on a marble slab in front of me.
It just suddenly all felt really old.
not bad. not negative. not sad - just old.