stay at home mama

[purrifectkitty]

i took all of johnny's holiday break off of work
it's a very nice feeling, possibly the best in the world
to stay home and love him up all day
cook for him, play with him, color with him
i am in love with seeing my son as he slips off to sleep
and cuddling him when he wakes in the morning
this is probably what i miss the most while working

there are people who think i'm crazy to want to
be a stay at home mom
but it's really my life's goal at the moment

we have a genetic counseling appt.
coming up on the second
turns out i have 2 copies of a dna mutation of my facor V
factor V has a lot to do with clotting
this is probably the cause of all my problems with my pregancy
with the J man
when i got the news i panicked
i thought the 2nd baby dream was done for
turns out there may be some proactive things we can do to control
the situation

i want nothing more than to have another baby
well except to live
it'd be nice to have another baby and watch both
my children grow up
i'm scared
but i want this badly
i know holly is scared, it's hard to ease her mind
at this point
hopefully the genetics counselor will have
some encouraging words for us