3am Musings
I never come on here anymore, I don't know why. Partly because if I do I get caught up in everything and before you know it two hours have disappeared. I don't want to stop coming here really, I never intended to. Life got in the way I suppose. I have started a new journal intended to be more positive and more about the stuff going on now, more reflective rather than a place for the bad stuff.
But this saw me through a lot of bad times and it seems wrong to leave it lonely now.
So, to summarise my life recently:
I left my job a couple of months ago. Very long story and some stuff I can't disclose anyway, but the bottom line is that I left. Partly good considering some of the things going on, but I wouldn't have left if things were different, I liked it there.
I have got a new job, night shifts as a support worker. No start date yet, which is getting worrying because we were told we would be starting around now but things keep getting pushed back. I don't particularly want to go back to support work, particularly for minimum wage for waking nights, but I don't have the luxury of being picky. I was hoping I would get the NVQ in before September but that probably won't happen. Although from their perspective they wouldn't want to pay for it if they knew about uni anyway. But a lot more interesting related jobs are opened up, or pay more, if you have one.
I have an unconditional offer from my first choice uni for a masters in counselling. I am now in the hell of trying to get grants to help me pay the fees. I have applied to be a person in halls who helps support the residents etc, in return for free accommodation, which will help a lot.
I had an interview at Cumbria but withdrew as it was going to cost me a fortune to get there and it was my last choice anyway.
I had one in Liverpool last week, went up there but decided I couldn't see myself living there so decided not to go at the last minute.
I still have one to hear back from, which was my joint first choice, but is three years so I'm not sure now.
I've started a Psychology OU degree, currently doing two courses. I want to get GBC as I am contemplating trying to get into Counselling Psychology in a few years, or even Clinical.
I finished my counselling skills course in December. I passed everything but the case study on my taped session so had to re-do two sections and am waiting to see if it's passed.
I don't talk to who was my best friend anymore. On top of everything from before last year there was something that was just the last straw. I actually think it is better for me.
I have got back into writing again over the last few months. Bad attempts at poetry with mostly short stories. I have had am idea for a novel too and an busy trying to develop that. I have been looking at the use of creative writing as a therapeutic tool, which I am already planning to do my dissertation on next year if I can :p
I've also started making jewellery. It's not particularly good stuff, and very basic, but I enjoy it. I did a two-day course at my old work in glass jewellery which was good, although I am sticking with beads, much easier and cheaper :p
I had to move in October. My new flat is huge - I have a 'spare bedroom' which is actually not really big enough to be a bedroom at all, but I have dubbed it my 'crap room' - and one of the neighbours has a really friendly cat which is nice :)
I think that's enough for now. I should try and sleep.
But this saw me through a lot of bad times and it seems wrong to leave it lonely now.
So, to summarise my life recently:
I left my job a couple of months ago. Very long story and some stuff I can't disclose anyway, but the bottom line is that I left. Partly good considering some of the things going on, but I wouldn't have left if things were different, I liked it there.
I have got a new job, night shifts as a support worker. No start date yet, which is getting worrying because we were told we would be starting around now but things keep getting pushed back. I don't particularly want to go back to support work, particularly for minimum wage for waking nights, but I don't have the luxury of being picky. I was hoping I would get the NVQ in before September but that probably won't happen. Although from their perspective they wouldn't want to pay for it if they knew about uni anyway. But a lot more interesting related jobs are opened up, or pay more, if you have one.
I have an unconditional offer from my first choice uni for a masters in counselling. I am now in the hell of trying to get grants to help me pay the fees. I have applied to be a person in halls who helps support the residents etc, in return for free accommodation, which will help a lot.
I had an interview at Cumbria but withdrew as it was going to cost me a fortune to get there and it was my last choice anyway.
I had one in Liverpool last week, went up there but decided I couldn't see myself living there so decided not to go at the last minute.
I still have one to hear back from, which was my joint first choice, but is three years so I'm not sure now.
I've started a Psychology OU degree, currently doing two courses. I want to get GBC as I am contemplating trying to get into Counselling Psychology in a few years, or even Clinical.
I finished my counselling skills course in December. I passed everything but the case study on my taped session so had to re-do two sections and am waiting to see if it's passed.
I don't talk to who was my best friend anymore. On top of everything from before last year there was something that was just the last straw. I actually think it is better for me.
I have got back into writing again over the last few months. Bad attempts at poetry with mostly short stories. I have had am idea for a novel too and an busy trying to develop that. I have been looking at the use of creative writing as a therapeutic tool, which I am already planning to do my dissertation on next year if I can :p
I've also started making jewellery. It's not particularly good stuff, and very basic, but I enjoy it. I did a two-day course at my old work in glass jewellery which was good, although I am sticking with beads, much easier and cheaper :p
I had to move in October. My new flat is huge - I have a 'spare bedroom' which is actually not really big enough to be a bedroom at all, but I have dubbed it my 'crap room' - and one of the neighbours has a really friendly cat which is nice :)
I think that's enough for now. I should try and sleep.