why always me
ok so it seems like since ive been in england i have more hill to climb than ever, maybe its fate or just life succking extra hard for me.
i dont like to post really personal stuff but i really need to vent so if anyone care, read on. for the past month or so i have been going to the breast clinic at the hosptial as i have found lumps. yesterday i found out that i have a tumor. i was hoping they were cysts, but my world came crashes down, i now have to wait a week, to see the next move, either way surgery. but 50/50 its benign or cancer. im scared shittless. it makes it worse that i work at a hosptial as i cant even go to work and forget about it there. they sent me home last night.
as my parents are in the us its hard, and its my grans 80th birthday on thursday and i m planning a surprise party for her, so i cant tell her just yet as i want to make it purfect for her.
ok, well thanks for letting me vent.
i dont like to post really personal stuff but i really need to vent so if anyone care, read on. for the past month or so i have been going to the breast clinic at the hosptial as i have found lumps. yesterday i found out that i have a tumor. i was hoping they were cysts, but my world came crashes down, i now have to wait a week, to see the next move, either way surgery. but 50/50 its benign or cancer. im scared shittless. it makes it worse that i work at a hosptial as i cant even go to work and forget about it there. they sent me home last night.
as my parents are in the us its hard, and its my grans 80th birthday on thursday and i m planning a surprise party for her, so i cant tell her just yet as i want to make it purfect for her.
ok, well thanks for letting me vent.