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then i had this idea to use livejournal as my "journal-journal"--a place for my thoughts, feelings, and fears, the personal, nitty-gritty type of stuff, and i can use my blog as a recording of my rocky-road PhD program/exam-taking/dissertation writing process. getting feedback on this process might be helpful and interesting. and it might be good for me to have a space to write--not in academic/scholarly speak, but just in jotting-down, thinking through, grappling with fashion. so that is my plan. i'd say, "and i'm sticking to it," but with me...you never know....
for the past two days i've been struggling with severe anxiety. just generalized anxiety--no known root cause. it's miserable feeling this way. insomnia to boot...leading to too much coffee...leading to further anxiety and lack of sleep. it is a terrible cycle. i can hardly eat. anxious stomach = no appetite, and i feel sick when i force-feed myself. i hope it goes away soon. it is taking me away from my work, which leads to further anxiety, as it is crunch time. four weeks left to the semester, and i need to make serious decisions about my committee, and therefore my future.
for the past two days i've been struggling with severe anxiety. just generalized anxiety--no known root cause. it's miserable feeling this way. insomnia to boot...leading to too much coffee...leading to further anxiety and lack of sleep. it is a terrible cycle. i can hardly eat. anxious stomach = no appetite, and i feel sick when i force-feed myself. i hope it goes away soon. it is taking me away from my work, which leads to further anxiety, as it is crunch time. four weeks left to the semester, and i need to make serious decisions about my committee, and therefore my future.