i'm idealizing
New habit: writing down snippets of conversation that have stuck with me over the years. Due to inaccuracies in memory, might be best to treat it as slightly fictional. Purposely left anon, but you can likely guess which one I am. They're purposefully out of context. Trying to experiment just how much of a person's character can be infered from random snippets like this (these are from a range of 4 years, in no particular order). Underlying question: how do you (should you) define yourself and others?
I've found it's a really interesting and effective way to examine behavior patterns. Highly recommended excercise. (Group it one person at a time, pick out memorable conversations, no matter what they are. Examine as a whole.)
1- You know, we'll never have this again.
0- This?
1- This. This freedom. We'll soon know it and the City will never be this big again.
0- We'll have other cities.
1- What? When?
0- Grad school-- we'll leave then.
1- It won't be the same. No other city in America can compare to New York.
0- Paris, London...
1- We'll never be overwhelmed again.
0- No, I suppose not.
1- You know what's good though? After this, we'll always have someone here.
0- Now I don't believe you.
0- As a kid, no one told me about sex. I remember, one time, the older kids asked us what it was so we could hang out with them. So I walked up and whispered, "It's when a man does... something... with a woman."
1- God, I wish I knew you then.
0- Getting my first period was traumatizing. I thought I was dying.
1- That's so cute!
0- And then, it's like nothing bad had ever happened. It was perfect, perfect! I don't understand. Maybe it's because he's finally realized that this is the end and got scared too. Maybe it's because I was moving on and not being desperate for a change.
1- Maybe he found out he has cancer and only one week to live.
0- Maybe you're right. Shut up! I love him.
1- Are these those caffienated mints you've been talking about? Can I have one?
0- Yeah, sure.
1- Oh my god! These are horrible! Horrible! Give me something to wash the taste out. No, I'll do it myself.
0- Well I like them.
1- I just washed my tongue with soap. You asshat.
0- Wait, oh, those weren't-- you just ate a caffeine pill.
1- You asshat! What kind of person puts the two together?
0- They're both caffeine...
1- No. I've known plenty of asshats. You are an assface!
0- Geez, you could have asked.
1- I hate myself and want to die.
0- What!?
1- They have shirts like that, in Japan.
0- Oh, well, they would.
1- I do though.
0- Yeah, you would. You shouldn't though.
1- Only sometimes.
0- Oh, ok.
1- Want the link?
0- Let's go! Go with me. If I were to sail away to the other side of the world, would you come with me?
1- Would there be internet?
0- Satellite, I think.
1- I guess that's good enough.
0- We can pretend we're married and this is our honeymoon.
1- We really should. No, I'm serious. With rings and everything.
0- If you come with me, I'll do it.
0- What's your dream house like?
1- A loft. A huge loft.
0- Yeah, me too. With lots of rooms. And a turret.
1- I'd have a room just for music. It wouldn't have any windows.
0- That would be cool. Paint the walls black, maybe put up christmas lights all over.
1- All it would have would be an excellent sound system. And cushions.
0- Why hold on then? What do you want to do with your life?
1- I want to discover something. I want to be the first.
0- What for? To help people or for the satisfaction of having discovered it?
1- I don't care about people and I don't care about fame. I want the knowledge.
0- God, I envy you. I used to be like that but I lost the drive.
0- Happy birthday!
1- I hate you!
0- Why?
1- I'd almost forgotten and you had to remind me.
0- So what? I bought you presents.
1- I really hate you.
0- Here.
1- I don't want to become older. I want to stay 19 forever.
0- You're welcome.
I'm too near-sighted for this so I keep reading in all sorts of characteristics which may not be there. Any insights (analysis) would be very much appreciated!
Background music:
...seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key explaining that I'm just visiting
and I am finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving
Realization:
Looking for truth in music lyrics. Oh fuck, I'm emo today.
In other news, I'm back from Russia to find that catz0r is large and in charge. She must think she's a panther. Gramma walks around the house with a flyswatter to keep her at bay.
I've found it's a really interesting and effective way to examine behavior patterns. Highly recommended excercise. (Group it one person at a time, pick out memorable conversations, no matter what they are. Examine as a whole.)
1- You know, we'll never have this again.
0- This?
1- This. This freedom. We'll soon know it and the City will never be this big again.
0- We'll have other cities.
1- What? When?
0- Grad school-- we'll leave then.
1- It won't be the same. No other city in America can compare to New York.
0- Paris, London...
1- We'll never be overwhelmed again.
0- No, I suppose not.
1- You know what's good though? After this, we'll always have someone here.
0- Now I don't believe you.
0- As a kid, no one told me about sex. I remember, one time, the older kids asked us what it was so we could hang out with them. So I walked up and whispered, "It's when a man does... something... with a woman."
1- God, I wish I knew you then.
0- Getting my first period was traumatizing. I thought I was dying.
1- That's so cute!
0- And then, it's like nothing bad had ever happened. It was perfect, perfect! I don't understand. Maybe it's because he's finally realized that this is the end and got scared too. Maybe it's because I was moving on and not being desperate for a change.
1- Maybe he found out he has cancer and only one week to live.
0- Maybe you're right. Shut up! I love him.
1- Are these those caffienated mints you've been talking about? Can I have one?
0- Yeah, sure.
1- Oh my god! These are horrible! Horrible! Give me something to wash the taste out. No, I'll do it myself.
0- Well I like them.
1- I just washed my tongue with soap. You asshat.
0- Wait, oh, those weren't-- you just ate a caffeine pill.
1- You asshat! What kind of person puts the two together?
0- They're both caffeine...
1- No. I've known plenty of asshats. You are an assface!
0- Geez, you could have asked.
1- I hate myself and want to die.
0- What!?
1- They have shirts like that, in Japan.
0- Oh, well, they would.
1- I do though.
0- Yeah, you would. You shouldn't though.
1- Only sometimes.
0- Oh, ok.
1- Want the link?
0- Let's go! Go with me. If I were to sail away to the other side of the world, would you come with me?
1- Would there be internet?
0- Satellite, I think.
1- I guess that's good enough.
0- We can pretend we're married and this is our honeymoon.
1- We really should. No, I'm serious. With rings and everything.
0- If you come with me, I'll do it.
0- What's your dream house like?
1- A loft. A huge loft.
0- Yeah, me too. With lots of rooms. And a turret.
1- I'd have a room just for music. It wouldn't have any windows.
0- That would be cool. Paint the walls black, maybe put up christmas lights all over.
1- All it would have would be an excellent sound system. And cushions.
0- Why hold on then? What do you want to do with your life?
1- I want to discover something. I want to be the first.
0- What for? To help people or for the satisfaction of having discovered it?
1- I don't care about people and I don't care about fame. I want the knowledge.
0- God, I envy you. I used to be like that but I lost the drive.
0- Happy birthday!
1- I hate you!
0- Why?
1- I'd almost forgotten and you had to remind me.
0- So what? I bought you presents.
1- I really hate you.
0- Here.
1- I don't want to become older. I want to stay 19 forever.
0- You're welcome.
I'm too near-sighted for this so I keep reading in all sorts of characteristics which may not be there. Any insights (analysis) would be very much appreciated!
Background music:
...seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key explaining that I'm just visiting
and I am finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving
Realization:
Looking for truth in music lyrics. Oh fuck, I'm emo today.
In other news, I'm back from Russia to find that catz0r is large and in charge. She must think she's a panther. Gramma walks around the house with a flyswatter to keep her at bay.